The Romantic Riot

110

2008-03-11T13:58:00.004+08:00

"Dance inside is really about sex."

You ever had those moments of illumination when suddenly you go "EUREKA!" I've finally deciphered the meaning to that song? Well, I think I just had one of those moments yesterday night. I was listening to All American Rejects' Dance Inside from their Move Along album. And I believe, seriously, I believe it's a song about intercourse, making love, SEX.

You might think I'm shallow but just hear me out. So the lyrics goes like this:

"Dance Inside."

(Hums guitar melody)

You don't have to move, you don't have to speak, lips for biting.

Just stay still and say nothing, let me please you. I want to bite your lips, can?

You're staring me down, a glance makes me weak, eyes for striking.

Now you're on top of me, I like the domination. I love your eye contact with me.

Now I'm twisting up when I'm twisted with you.

Complicated and complex position? No sweat, I have a "can-do" attitude. =D

Brush so lightly and time trickles down, and I'm breathing for two, squeeze so tightly.

Lightly is not light at all and as it intensifies, our breathing becomes one, so hold me close.

I'll be fine, you'll be fine.

We are fine!

This moment seems so long

I don't want it to end.

Don't waste now, precious time

Time is gold, let's continue.

We'll dance inside the song

Best done with music.

What makes the one to shake you down?

What turns you on?

Each touch belongs to each new sound

SELF EXPLANATORY.

Say now you want to shake me too

Tell me I turn you on too.

Move down to me, slip into you

Let's make love.

She sinks in my mind as she sheds through her skin

She's all I can think of now as I see her naked.

Touch, sight, tastes like fire

My senses erupts in joy.

Hands do now what eyes no longer defend

I'm touching you all over because my eyes cannot touch you.

Hands to fuel desire

My hands are doing their job. =D

Ooo, ah [x8]

SUPER SELF EXPLANATORY.

And I'll be fine, you'll be fine

We are soooo fine.

Is this fine? I'm not fine

Okay, now I'm confused, are we fine or not?

Give me pieces, give me things to stay awake (stay awake)

Nah, we're fine. Let's go for seconds?

Just in case you folks want to listen in to the song, here you go!

Oh, oh, the music video contains scenes from Pride & Prejudice! *Nudge nudge hint hint!*

She's super perfect.

End.

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109

2008-02-29T16:38:00.008+08:00

"Goodbye Tietiary Life."

Look, look!

I can't believe this will be the last result slip that I will ever receive from Singapore Polytechnic. There goes 3 years of my life and it was worth it. I have, theoretically, graduated from the school but I will be officially receiving my diploma on the 28/05/2008! I am a little sad that I will be leaving this place that is full of memories both happy and sad.

I remembered when we climbed the school's roof.

I remembered when we strapped a caterpillar and a lizard on a paper plane and let it flew into it the "horizon" a.k.a demise.

I remembered all those countless hours in the Post Production Studio.

I remembered all those countless hours behind the scenes in NDP '07.

I remembered all those stupid things we did in the Studio and I hope they got it all on camera.

I remembered when I damaged the expensive HDV camera and I thought I was going to get expelled.

All these thoughts are so "Ataris-ish", so "So Long Astoria-ish". Whatever the hell that means. Haha! I will miss Singapore Polytechnic, the way I miss Greenview Secondary.

But whatever, it's time to "move along move along", and I quote someone "it's so last summer".

***

Oh, and I am officially Anti-Pigeon. Why? Let me tell you what happened...

I was strolling at the streets, heading towards the bus stop to go to the Bus interchange. It was a clear day and I was busily reading an SMS on my phone, smiling and oblivious to the surrounding for a while. I did hear pigeons around me, flapping their wings and making those weird sounds they always do.

As I was crossing this carpark road, suddenly I felt as if rain was falling on me, you know, that light gentle tap of droplets from the sky just before it rains heavily? I swear I thought it was drops of rain from the gray sky above but when I wiped my hand on it, it felt sticky and gooey. Immediately, I turned my attention towards my hand and sure enough, there was bird shit on my left hand.

And I can't tell you how pissed off I was, I was like swearing at the pigeons as they flew by. Some passerby looked at me as if I was insane or something but I didn't care. I kept my phone in my pocket, took off my shirt and assess the "bombings" on my shirt. It was all over I tell you. It's as if I was in their direct path of carpet bombing.

I walked home, topless and swearing at every pigeon I see around me.

Damn pigeons!

***

"The Taste, The Touch" by Asteria.

"A choice to care.

A wish to touch."

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108

2008-02-26T13:37:00.003+08:00

"My Pledge."

Do you have a pledge for yourself? Something you abide to and refer to every single time you come across a crossroad in life? You would probably have at least one pledge that drums to beat of your heart every day. Let me share with you mine, don't worry, my pledge is not a secret.

"Red Light Pledge."

I will never..

Never ever let anyone push you over. Be strong and courageous in the eyes of fear and intimidation. I was an anti-social in Primary School and some of them would see me as a "push-over", the kid who you could say anything and won't fight back. I was under the anti-social influence for 6 years of my life and I can tell you it's like a dormant volcano, sleeping and waiting for the moment to erupt.

I wrote in this blog some time ago, that I did erupted once in a while when I was in Primary School. I remembered punching some kid who stole my file, breaking his jaw, glasses and his pride. I remembered when some group of kids throwing mini paper balls at me and acting as if they didn't do it. I threw a thick book which hit one of those idiot's face, making him cry. I remembered picking up a kid and throwing him off to the ground when he jumped on me to mock me for being fat and ugly while the other kids laughed. He didn't come to school for days after that. I was to be blamed and the head discipline would always call my parents, I mean, my mother.

Thankfully, I have a wonderful mother who went through it with me, knowing full well I was not at fault. Thank you, mother.

Never ever lay your hand on a girl to hurt her, to abuse her or to cause suffering. I remember my beloved Form/English Teacher, Madam Cheah Lay Tin (wherever you are right now, thank you SEXY!) for telling us to make a special pledge for this. She made each and every guy in the classroom to stand up and say this pledge out loud for all the girls in the class to hear. There was only 15 of us in the class, so it was easy and quick.

I don't believe in hurting any girl physically or emotionally(but I am guilty for this some times) and I have never hurt any girl to cause suffering. It's just plain wrong and there's a law against it. Well, pinches and pokes don't count okay? *Hints to someone*

And I'll break any guy's jaw if they try hurting the girl I care.

"Orange Light Pledge."

I will wait..

I will wait for what I want. This pledge of mine reminds me of the story of a girl who waits for his man when he goes to sail away for war. The story goes that the couple is torn by the man's duty and commitment to serve in the war. He promises to her that he will come back safely and marries when he arrives home, he will be back with a ring from the farthest region of the world and he will propose to her as soon as he disembarks the boat.

She promises to him that he will wait for him to come back and every night she will wait at the edge of the cliff overlooking the horizon where her love has left to fight the war. She waited and waited, be it in the rain or snow. Months have passed but her determination to wait for the man continues on until she becomes frail and fallen sick but the love for her is too strong that she turns herself into a stone overlooking the sea, still waiting for him.

Years passed, and news came and the girl's lover, was killed in action during war. He was shot in the head while looking at a picture of her during one of the heated battles in the war. Until today, their spirits never rekindle and remain waiting until kingdom comes and destroys the distance between them.

I love that folklore. I can't remember where I read it from but it was touching. This just goes to show how much a person will wait for something he really really wants. I will wait for what I want even if it means it won't happen. *CUE SECONDHAND SERENADE SONGS!* (LOL).

***

I have 2 test coming up in the coming weeks and I'm a little nervous.

1 March 2008, this saturday - NTU FACULTY TEST
14 March 2008 - NAPHA TEST

I'm psyched about them but somehow I feel nervous. I know I can do them but I feel something's going to screw up somewhere.

Do wish me luck okay?

***

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you,

Over again, don't make me change my mind.

I want to live to see another day, I swear it's true.

Because a girl like you is impossible to find.

I love that paragraph.

End.

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107

2008-02-21T13:35:00.010+08:00

"Ticket for the Emotional Roller Coaster ride: Priceless."

Yesterday I took a ride on the Emotional Roller Coaster ride. It's wild, crazy and it damages your mind faster than watching Brit kids doing the "Happy Slap" on innocent bystanders. Here's the brief blueprint of the ride that happened in the last twenty-four hours.

"The dancing stranded Hispanic."

(Before I start, I just wanted to reminiscent on my SP buddies and use our nicks that we usually called each other with. Jun Jie was BabyJun, Stan was Stanidentia, Hafeez was AL, Kathleen was Kat, Jasmine was Jasminah and I was Romantic Riot. Damn gay but it was so funny and I miss it like hardcore.)

(Raffles City Shopping Center)

(City Hall MRT)

So BabyJun and Romantic Riot, along with Stanidentia are supposed to go to NTU to deliver some important transcripts for admission purposes. BabyJun decides to meet Romantic Riot at Shitty Hall/Siti Hall (City Hall) to have lunch together before hooking up with Stanidentia to embark on the two hours journey to NTU.

(NTU's ADM Building! Hopefully I'll get it in!)

As BabyJun and Romantic Riot is walking by Raffles Shopping Center's Starbucks, a weird looking man of Hispanic descent is dancing nonchalantly among the crowds, many of them dismissing the weird looking man who sports a dark Metallica t-shirt, baggy pants that look worn out and bangles that could kill, as another senile destitute.

Dancing to the tunes of a rock music coming from his Tape Player hanging on his waist, he purposely bumps into Riot's arse with his booty dance as if trying to get Riot's attention. Riot turns around, shocked and stunned, looking at the man's careless expression. The Hispanic man offers a handshake as if a business deal between the two strangers have been made.

Riot shakes the man's big warm hand, wriggling the bangles and wristbands as he does so.

Man: What's your name, dude?

Riot: My name's zid.

Man: Zid, nice to meet you! How about you?

BabJun: JJ.

Man: So where are you guys heading, man?

Riot: Uh, we're off the food court to have lunch, yeah.

Man: So you guys are gonna pig out yeah? Well, guess what, let's go pig out, I'mma follow you to pig out, because I love pigging out! (Makes pig noises and snorts)

Riot: Uh, okay, let's go then.

The man tails BabyJun and Romantic Riot all the way to the shopping center.

Riot: So where are you from, man?

Man: I'm Spanish, man, Spanish-American, ever heard of Hispanic? Yeah, I'm Hispanic.

Riot: Oh! Hispanic, cool!

Man: Dude, let me tell you something, I have a gun with me. I have a gun in my pocket. Shhh, don't tell the cops, man.

Riot: (Uneasy) Sure, your secret's safe. Don't worry.

Man: You know, sometimes you have to go to some American's and grab them by the collar and ask them "Where are you going, Motherfucker?!"

Riot: LOL.

The three awkward individuals walk towards the food court.

Man: Yo! I should change my tape to Winnie the Pooh and Tigger, Metallica for Tigger! Woo!

Reaches the entrance of the food court. The Hispanic man taps Riot's shoulder.

Man: You know what guys, you guys aren't assholes. You guys go ahead and have your lunch.

BabyJun and Riot's jaw dropped. The Hispanic man left them and disappears into the crowd.

Moral of the story:

We could've been on MTV's Boiling Point, or some secret survey for some major research or you could be experiencing one of those moments that will get you killed and the twist was so profound it made my day.

He could have a real gun and shot the both of us or he could have been a thief with a cunning plan to lure us into his trap and we could have fallen for it but I'm a humanist. I think every human should have the right to speech no matter how evil he could be.

Seriously, in my opinion. I don't think he's really a destitute or a madman.

Whatever it is, I think we passed the Tolerance Test.

***

"Kosmic Reaktion."

(Aurora Borealis)

We live in a modern jungle; there are urban beaches, mountains and jungles everywhere, streams of fast travelers whizzing by, oblivious to the beauty of Mother Nature when she styles herself 'Mod'.

Close your special eyes, let the cold breeze caress your soft brown hair and listen to the ominous sound of the moving vehicles under you. Let the rhythm of the wavelength hypnotize your mind, soothing, gentle and liberating.

Look up the at stars and you'll see Orion's belt so desirous of you.

End.

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106

2008-02-20T11:26:00.013+08:00

"Everything's , everything's magic!"

I don't know why, just read the lyrics to AVA's Everything's magic, it's magical.

And do you ever feel like you're alone?

And do you ever wish to be unknown?

I could say that I have.

And do you ever feel things here aren't right?

And do you ever feel the time slip by?

I could say that I have.

So hear this, please.

And watch as your heart speeds up endlessly.

And look for the stars as the sun as goes down.

This breath that you take has thunderous sound.

Everything's, everything's magic.

Just sit back and hold but hold on tight.

Prepare for the best and fastest ride.

Reach out your hand and I'll make you mine.

Everything's, everything's magic.

And do you ever lay awake at night?

And do you ever tell yourself don't try?

Don't try to let yourself down, down try to let yourself down.

And do you ever see yourself in love?

And do you ever take the chance, my love?

Because you know that I will, because you know that I will.

So hear this please.

And watch as your heart speeds up endlessly.

And look for the stars as the sun goes down.

This breath that you take has a thunderous sound.

Everything's, everything's magic.

Just sit back and hold on but hold on tight.

Prepare for the best and fastest ride.

Reach out your hand and I'll make you mine.

Everything's, everything's magic.

Everything's, everything's magic! =)

End.

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105

2008-02-17T22:52:00.010+08:00

"Oh, it's what you do to me."

I've been absent from World Wide Web for quite some time and I have a good reason for this. Did you know how internet is hooked to your home PC or Wireless Router or what have you? Have you any clue as to how it works? If your answer is a vehement "no", let me enlighten you.

You have an Ethernet Cable:

It goes round and round the retro chair in your room:

It's connected into your wall:

And behind that wall of yours is a Monkey who patches it to the internet:

The beauty of internet right?

Well, apparently, my monkey is not doing its job of patching the cable to the internet.

Laugh my ass off.

Okay, seriously, my Wireless Router is not working really. Something's wrong with it and I can't seem to figure out what's the problem. I'll probably need to get a new one or some how pull the ethernet cable from it's hidden route along the nook and crannies of my home and use it as a direct ethernet plug in into my MacBook.

Now, I'm just using an OLD WINDOWS PC which is damn slow and old because I'm desperate to go online, check my mail and give my blog a quick update.

***

It's amazing how someone can make you feel that life is so good.

"I wanna show you more secrets,

Promise on your pinky;

I wanna sing it through your body,

I wanna leave it on your lips."

End.

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104

2008-02-07T22:16:00.000+08:00

"Have you ever wondered?"

Today is thursday, a public holiday (Happy Chinese New Year!) and there is no where to go really since most of the shops would be closed. So what did I do? I took out a stash of not-so-old movies and start a Matrix Marathon, all three of them to be precise. I love movies with hidden messages in them, especially those with symbolism in them, the Matrix Trilogy has them.

Too many thought provoking lines in the movies but there is one that I found so interesting. "Knowing the path and walking the path is two different things." This remark made by Morpheus is so true. With the notion, this makes Fortune Tellers all around the world a con men and nothing more. The reason is because, if you know something is going to happen, you would probably want to alter it, it's human nature to do so.

"Knowledge is Power."

I have finally made my mind up and I want to go to Nanyang Technological University after my 2 years of National Service. What am I eyeing for?

Bachelor of Fine Arts in Digital Filmmaking
Bachelor in Communication Studies (Broadcast & Cinema Studies)

The pre-requisites are that I have to send in Show Reel and a 3min video about myself, this is for the BFA in Digital Filmmaking. As for the Communication Studies, a good understanding of the English language. Hopefully I'll get the Filmmaking one which is my first choice among the two.

The cost for the course: $22K.

Where do I get the money: Grant.

Wish me all the best okay?

End.

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103

2008-02-01T00:12:00.000+08:00

"The Sky's Magic."

I love the sky and everything on it. Not a lot of people can understand sky gazing, it's a secret habit I have developed lately. The bluish-orange tint in the early dawn and late dusk, the mesmerizing clouds that hover above you but never seem to want to harm you. It's beautiful, it's charming and it's magic.

And did you know that the Earth is unwell when it's totally blue in the sky and when it's missing out on the clouds? We are at the mercy of the sky, babies in the womb of Mother Earth - Madam Gaia.

If there is one power that I could have is the power to manipulate the sky. Well, may be it won't be helping to resolve our world conflicts but I could render mankind speechless with the sky's lovely antics. Imagine people at war, all the soldiers on the ground their guns in silence, their eyes fix on the sky like a baby in their own personal trance.

"Aurora Borealis, Northern Lights."

I'd love to see this for myself and share it with someone special someday.

Camp out with whoever you are, staring at those lights from the mouth of our tent, having Ruffles and Ice Lemon Tea for snacks and the radio playing some slow songs at the background. Heaven will envy that moment.

Oh yes, I ran my first 3km in months. I made it, slow and I had my ass muscles cram up on me. It's not funny because it hurts. Okay, yeah, it's a little funny, I never had my ass hurt like that bad before.

It's 1am now but who cares.

End

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102

2008-01-29T17:43:00.000+08:00

"I believe in science fiction."

Why don't you believe in fiction when we still can never figure out the largest number in the universe? Why don't you believe in fiction when we have yet to explore the rest of the galaxy? Why don't you believe in fiction when there is so many density that we cannot see but has always been there?

I have an idea. If you believe in Newton's Third Law of Reciprocal where every action has an equal and opposite reaction than you probably will nod to my next statement. If someone writes about a fictional world in a real world then there will be someone who writes about a fact world in a fictional world, am I correct? Which means a fiction may in fact be a fact after all and that Star Wars may be going on somewhere in the universe. =)

"Imagination is a kid's first toy."

Imagination is beautiful and I believe imagination is a manifestation of very real materials integrated together, revised and produced into "unfamiliar" product which we believe can never exist. However, how could we imagine something which we have never seen before? It's almost impossible to imagine an object without referring to everyday objects and entities that we have seen before.

Say, imagine a monster "which you have never seen before". What is the monster that your creative mind comes up with? Mine? Err... Looks much like this.

Where do I get that monster from? A mix of some Pokemon which I saw when I was a kid, that texture, an awful painting that I once saw in Secondary School and that ugly eye-stitch-on, are those that I know goth teenagers nowadays adore. Like I said, it is just many normal things made magical by the mind.

Your imagination might not be extraordinary after all.

"Intelligent is just an elitist word for individuals who excel in a limited body of knowledge."

I excel in creativity and arts, why don't you call me intelligent? You excel in sports and physical activities but why do I call you fit and not intelligent? Why are artists creative and not intelligent? Why are champion sportsmen are fit and not intelligent? I wonder why.

My guess is, the need to group people into different class, so as not to confuse the sets of skills which are relevant to life and those deemed secondary.

End

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101

2008-01-27T16:08:00.000+08:00

No Funny Business This Time.

I find it hard to believe that today I woke up and had the urge to start blogging again but what's harder to believe is that I did manage to have a total makeover for my blog and even gave a touch of style in one day. I usually took up at least 3 days to finish up the layout for my previous blog layout.

I have no particular reason why I resurrect this blog again after 4 months of shelving it in the corner of the Internet. The only reason I can say is, I have grown to love my blog and I do miss pouring my heart out in the cyberworld where individuals from any part of the world will have access to.

That's all for my introductory post and feedbacks on my blog's design are welcome, thank you.

End.

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Test.

2008-01-27T15:53:00.000+08:00

Test.

End

Reaching The Crossroad, What's In The Horizon?

2007-09-06T14:20:00.000+08:00

In the coming months, or a year or so, many of my peers and I will be reaching the next crossroad in our lives - where to go after polytechnic life? Well, of course, there's the 3 big figures waiting for all of us able-bodied male graduates, Soldier, Police and Fireman. Just to answer the question, I'll go running towards the Soldier, no Mr Policeman or Mr I-want-to-Fight-Fire for me. However, that's not what I'm blogging today, though it'll make an interesting post next time, I'm talking about what happens after NS, where to go? what to do?

Many would assume, having just a diploma would be good enough, to me, not a wise decision, my friend. Nowadays, almost everybody has a diploma, be it with merit or without, 1 diploma or 10 diplomas. Kindergarten education teaches you to crawl to work, Primary school education teaches you to walk to work and, Secondary school education, to run there. Basically, a diploma is like riding a bicycle to work, okay, it sure beats running there but I want to go faster than a bicycle! Hence, I plan on getting a motorcycle, no wait, I meant a degree.

I'm going to share my plans here in my blog because, hey, what's a blog for if you don't let people give their opinion(s) on your plans right?

For your information, NTU has open a new design school in its campus, School of Art, Design & Media. It's a fairly new school if I'm not wrong, has not really gain much popularity yet in the creative industry. However, I'll be in National Service for at least 2 years and hopefully by then it'll be more credible and recognised like other institutions here.

Good:

A very wholesome learning experience in which the first year is your basic Art, Design & Media modules. Second year onwards, you'll start to specialise in what your degree is all about. Furthermore, strong emphasis on professional practice. Course fee - acceptable and location wise, not a problem, it's just a few blocks away from SP.

Bad:

Fairly new, not as recognisable as other institutions offering similar degrees. Course duration - so LONG?! HAHA! May be they stretch it out nicely considering the nature of such courses, they tend to need more time to finish up their projects and stuffs.

For more information, visit here.

Oh, yes, LaSalle-SIA, the most credible and recognisable institutions offering degrees that cater to design, art and media students. If anyone asked "where's a good design institute in Singapore?", this is one of the good institutions that will be mention. It is very well recommended if you have the heart and soul for anything design, art and media.

Good:

The most recognised and credible institution for design, art and media in Singapore. It offers a very in depth learning and has been operating here for a quite a long time and has distinguished itself from the rest. Location wise - very convenient! Right in the heart of Singapore, town! Oh, and can I add, that the new campus is BEAUTIFUL, I would love to study there!

Bad:

What the FUCK! The course fee is freaking expensive! The most expensive among all of the institutions! Where the hell am I going to find that amount of money?! With that kind of course fee, I can get 2 degrees from NTU. Tsk Tsk Tsk.

Apparently, the website's having problem. But here you go anyway, LaSalle-SIA.

Anyone heard of this institution before? HAHA! Well, I don't really hear in the news, TV or radio but I saw one of it's advertisement in the newspaper a long time ago. So I decided to scout for it in the Internet and I went into their website. It's quite cool I must say because they cater only to media students.

Furthermore, I state the duration above as 2 years, and the real reason for that is because you'll have to undergo a one year diploma course - Diploma in Digital Film Production. But if you're lucky, and you have all the necessary proof to say you've gone through that kind of course before, you can go straight for the degree, which means you only study 1 year. For those of you folks who think this might not be so wise a choice, let me add that you will received your degree from Middlesex University, England, quite credible, I had lecturers who graduated from there.

Good:

It's only 2 years and the course fee's acceptable (similar to the course fee for NTU's degree), what's there not to like?! HAHA! Furthermore, if you happen not to get straight into the Bachelor of Arts course, you'll go through the diploma course first. That way I'll have 2 diplomas and still get my degree for the same cost of getting one degree in NTU! Location wise - again, TOWN! great!

Bad:

The only bad thing here is that I'm not sure if the amount of education and skills they teach will be comparable to that of other institutions, because it is a one year degree programme after all. Moreover, if it is the same, than it'll probably be very compressed and I would probably need to prepare for sleepless days, nights and panda eyes.

For more information, visit here.

These are my plans in getting that "motorcycle". Well, I'm an ambitious guy, so I have plans of getting a Masters too if possible, a "sports car" if you will.

Either, or.

Ah, yes! One of the world's most credible institutions offering a Master of Arts in Film have arrived in Singapore! I must say, this is the most prestigious institution to go if you're a film-making maniac, even my lecturers don't study here. Well, not for long, I think since they just open their film school branch here, some of my lecturers are planning to stop teaching for a while and study there, just goes to show how valuable their Masters are.

Good:

The first of it's kind in Asia and you don't have to travel all the way to the U.S to study. Furthermore, you will be surrounded with people from different countries who share the same passion as you, it'll really help you expand your mind. A very comprehensive learning journey, highest of its craft and you will be highly valued with your Masters. Location wise, again, all around TOWN! HAHA!

Bad:

Money, money, money!

For more information, visit TischAsia.

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My body, legs and arms hurt from my 4km run yesterday! ARGH! Actually, I wanted to go out today, but I can't walk properly! HAHA! This is the result of not having an healthy lifestyle the past 3 months and a half. So kids out there, start exercising and jogging or I'm going to beat you up.

Another thing to add, from the above plans of mine, the only thing that I'm afraid is, the MONEY. Where to get that much amount of money? Yeah, I have to work and all but for how long?! Damn, some times I just "hate" money but we need it, sucks. So how am I going to get the money? Army Scholarships, may be loans or I'll just have to work for it.

Or may be I could whore myself to a rich old tai tai who's willing to sponsor me. =)

Or I could wait for the IR and do an ocean's 13 heist!, who's with me?! Wait, gotta find 12 people first, shit.

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Sentimental Farewells & Goodbyes.

2007-09-02T15:59:00.000+08:00

"Saying goodbye doesn't mean anything. It's the time we spent together that matters, not how we left it." - anonymous

Yesterday, I finished one of the most memorable and meaningful workshop that I have ever had in my past 18 years. I gained mountains of knowledge and skill there from Matthew Siegel in the "Advanced HD Cinematography" workshop at MediaCorp's Singapore Media Academy. Like what Jeanine told me, whatever Matthew thought us in the 5 days, is more than what we can learn in one single semester of our school's video production module.

I am so thankful to Matthew Siegel, David Lee, Jeanine and all my other peers during the course for they have nurtured and mold me into a better film/video student in the past 5 days. I love you all and I hope to see you all in the future, may be we'll get to work together too!

Pictures really speak a thousand words:

Best in class lesson I ever had.

One of those cherished gay moments.

Our mentors, Directors of Photography, Matthew Siegel and David lee.

Outdoor shoots.

SGD$200K worth of equipment, you can buy a sports car with this!

The Grip Guerrilla.

Jeanine's in love with the HD cameras.

Studio 4, where we had our hands on workshop done. Beautiful!

Preparing for shoot. See how messy it is behind the camera? That's reality.

Here, I'm the dolly man. I took other roles during the workshop including Grip, Gaffer, Camera Assistant, Camera Operator, Cable Wrangler, Spotter, Director of Photography and, of course, Director. Love it all! But like I told JJ, "I'm happy doing minute things like dolly (pushing the dolly along the rail), Grip (carrying/installing production equipments) but, screw you, not for the rest of my life!".

But you know, you have to start somewhere in this industry. Like any other industry, you have to start very low, doing mundane things and I have no problem with that. Really. =)

This is not a publicity stunt for Matthew, but he's very humble for someone of his calibre and Jeanine concurred with me. Not many Cinematographers are as humble yet wise like him in this competitive film/video production industry.

The talents are not professionals but they're cute, so that makes it up for me. HAHA!

Wait, not all the talents are cute, not the male talent. Heard from one of the cameramans there that he's a nude model for drawing classes. You'd probably see him in some of the pictures above, I laughed my brains off, I bet you would too, discreetly or openly. But gotta love the one with braces though, wooh.

And here's the useless Engineer handling the camera. Everybody hates him, oh well, there's always a class idiot. Moral of the story: "never bring an engineer to a production shoot".

During one of the days, we had to do an exercise in which we had to try out various camera lens and figure out what's the difference in terms of focusing the picture and we had to present it to the class. You know, I believe everyone has an immortal inner child sitting on their mind. When it comes to choose the presenter, I thought these grown ups would choose and volunteer accordingly but what did they do? They started pointing at each other and laughing! HAHA! One of them, said "No, no, I'm the Director and I say I don't want to present!" It was all cool and fun! It's okay to let your inner child come out and play once in a while.

It was freaking awesome having Jeanine as a student with us, we get a taste of how she is if she's in the same class with us but not as a lecturer but as a student. For your information, she's a psycho in class and loves the toilet but we love you Jeanine.

You know, Polytechnic lecturers are way cooler than primary and secondary school teachers. Lecturers are like your friends unlike the authoritative primary and secondary school teachers.

Brainstorming with the people of the same interest are way better.

David Lee teaching us how to "cheat" in filming.

You got to learn to work with all kinds of people. Cute, arrogant, stuck ups, liars, freakily passionate etc.

Camera on shoulder method or the steadycam they called it. Not recommended for girls because this camera and the equipments attached to it, in total, weighs in around 25Kg.

Unless of course, you're a girl who's passionate about film and video production.

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To tell you the truth, this workshop made me contemplate of my future. Where do I really want to go? What path do I want to take? Let me tell you what I have planned before and after the course:

Before:

Plan 1:

Polytechnic - Get diploma (Age: 20)
NS Army - Get Army Local Study Scholarship (Age: 22)
NTU - Get Mass Comm Degree (Age: 26)
Army Regular - Collect Money (Age: 30)
Join MediaCorp/Production House

Plan 2:

Polytechnic - Get diploma (Age: 20)
NS Army - Get Army Local Study Scholarship (Age: 22)
NTU - Get Mass Comm Degree (Age: 26)
Army Regular - Collect Money (Age: 35)
Set up Independent Production House

After:

Plan 1:

Polytechnic - Get diploma (Age: 20)
NS Army - Get Army Study Scholarship Overseas (Age: 22)
Overseas Film School/University - Get Film Studies Degree (Age: 26)
Army Regular - Collect Money (Age: 30)
Join MediaCorp/Production House

Plan 2:

Polytechnic - Get diploma (Age: 20)
NS Army - Get Army Local Study Scholarship (Age: 22)
NAFA - Film Studies Degree (Age: 26)
NYU's Local Branch of Tisch School of Arts - Film Studies Masters (Age: 29)
Army Regular - Collect Money (Age: 32)
Join MediaCorp/Production House

I'm still contemplating. =)

End.

Freaking Insomnia.

2007-08-28T23:29:00.000+08:00

Okay, you see, I'm blogging almost like everyday now and if you're observant enough, all of them are late night postings. Why? The reason is clearly stated on the title of my post - freaking insomnia! I have not been sleeping well lately. I don't really know why because I'm still going through the list of causes online and I do not know which one is the cause.

You know, it sucks, jumping into bed at 1230+ and still rolling around your bed at 3am in the morning, feeling frustrated you can't fall asleep. The result? Well, I don't really have a problem waking up on time for my workshop and stuffs but I don't feel refresh when I wake up. I still feel tired, weak and pissed off. For the benefit of my fellow sufferers:

Insomnia:

Acute, Short term; usually lasting up to a month
Chronic, Long/Short term; usually caused by another disease

For my case, the causes, it'll probably be-

Causes:

A stressful event
Disruption of sleep/wake cycle

A stressful event? Hrmm, which one, too many, and I can't disclose all of it here. Disruption of sleep/wake cycle? Er, I sleep late usually and I wake up early nowadays for my workshop. It could either be one of them above but I don't know for sure. Luckily, there's probable solutions/treatment:

Keep a standard sleeping schedule (Not check)
Avoid Caffeine (CHECK!)
Avoid Smoking (CHECK!)
Avoid Drinking (Double CHECK!)
Avoid Eating too close to Sleep time (CHECK!)
Avoid Exercising too close to Sleep time (Aww, shit.)
Do relaxing rituals (LOL, okay, I read before sleeping among other things!)
Make sure your room is cool, dark and quiet (CHECK!)
Use your bed to sleep (Triple CHECK!)

I'll try to follow up on these rules tonight, we'll see what happens.

further information & source

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Holy shit, Army Open House 30th Aug 2007 @ Pasir Laba Camp! Shit, Shit! I'm psyched!!!!!! I'm going for sure, hell yeahh! And I'm going to make the crazy decision of trying to sign up for Army Officer contracts on that day! Shit, I can't wait.

I NEED to TOUCH a gun, damn it.

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Oh dear, how I fucking hate liars, like hardcore.

I'd rather accept 10 idiots than 1 liar.

End.

Lightmeter.

2007-08-27T23:24:00.000+08:00

Today I had a HD Cinematography workshop at MediaCorp's Media Academy. It was cool and all, helping out with the facilitators as gaffers and grips. As for you who do not know what that is, it's basically a job where you carry the equipments, transport them from one place to another and eventually setting up the equipments, "movers" essentially.

I was really kind of scared at first, intimidated, because we're sitting in there with the big boys of the video production community. Too bad the famous big shots like Royston and all are not there but hey we got International Director of Photography, Matthew Siegel, teaching us which is awesome. He's like crazy and all, picking on everyone, calling us the SP boys "Grip Guerrilla". HAHA!!

But on top of it all, I just can't stand when he poked fun at the Cameramans there with his Lightmeter Joke. The lightmeter is used to calculate the amount of light illuminating the location and you can use this to your advantage in terms of how you want your shot to look like and apparently, these cameramans never really used those lightmeters. Here's what he said:

(Matthew looks at cameramans sitting in front of him)

Matt: You guys seen this things before? Used 'em before?

(Cameramans shakes their heads and look at each other)

Matt: No? Never used them before? (Changes voice, making himself sound like one of the cameraman and he goes on saying:) 'Hmm, I never learn to use those Lightmeters before in Film School. No, wait, I never went to Film School'.

SWEAR TO GOD THAT'S THE MOST FUNNIEST THING I HEARD THIS YEAR. I laughed until my jaw hurts.

Day 1's done, 4 days to go!

End.

Sugarcoats.

2007-08-25T23:37:00.001+08:00

I love how we humans have evolved and developed into such complex mammals that dogs envy us by peeing on our legs. We learn to sugarcoat most of our primal instincts, too many to state here, I'll just state the one I find interesting. Let's begin with "LOVE". You like him, he likes that pretty girl, she has a crush on that guy, that guy is heads over heels for that girl.

Now tell me, what's the goal that you want to achieve at the end of the day?

TO REPRODUCE. (Laughs out loud as the hot chocolate I'm drinking drips out of my nose) What? Don't come to me and say "no no, it's all about love, about having a soul mate to live with until you move to a better world". What bull shit?! Okay, if you say that, then don't you dare make love or I'll chop 'em off! See, deep inside your heart, you're confessing this to me, be it you're a male or a female, you NEED to do this to ensure your family generation continues on.

Relax, don't flame me yet, even though how primal the reason behind it, we have evolve in which we need to sugarcoat it, make our beastly needs more subtle and charming, hence, the creation of love. The benefits are abundant I must say, it not only helps you find the perfect choice of mate for reproduction but also helps you develop other qualities such as loyalty and faithfulness.

*Just a note to add, screw (literally and metamorphically) those humans who abuse this beautiful product of evolution.

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Today, I received a call from Jeanine telling me that I did not get the internship post at MediaCorp. Well, I must say a big congratulations to Teo Jun Jie (JJ) for being the best man and getting the post. Remember my favor yeah? I need to reproduce too. HAHA! I felt sad, really, because MediaCorp's such a big and well-known company in Singapore and a good name for your portfolio but fret not because Jeanine's calling to inform me of a good news!

I did not get MediaCorp, Singapore's premier broadcasting company, but, I am posted to BlackMagic Design (Post Production), Woohoo! It's an international production company with productions houses all over the world! The Asian so called BlackMagic Headquarters is located here in Singapore, City Hall and I'll be interning there for 4 months. I'm freaking psyched like crazy. (I'm spraying hot chocolate out of my nose purposely)

Now I OWE Jeanine and Jen like big time because they helped me get the posting there. Thank you, lovelies!

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Now, I'm sipping hot chocolate in the darkness of my room, only my MacBook's light illuminating a portion of my room. You know, I must confess, there are a lot of things I have done I wish I could take back. Too bad we can't do that, you cannot take back all the wrongs you did and some how make it right.

There are so many things you'd wish you do but you didn't and just let it all passed. This is another thing I'm frustrated at, why oh why didn't I do what I set out to do? Why didn't I follow through with my plans? There's no turning back now.

Unless of course... Someone builds a time machine and I can go back to amend those things. So the moral of the story: "Someone please build a god damn time machine, damn it!"

I can't sleep yet, I'm thinking of somebody or is it something? Hrmm.

Who? Why the hell I'm telling you for, bitch. =)

(Finishes hot chocolate and walks into the darkness of the kitchen.)

End.

Resuscitation, Coma & Shocks.

2007-08-21T17:45:00.000+08:00

Sorry, I resuscitated my blog a couple of weeks ago, thinking that I'll manage to continue keeping this blog's heartbeat going but it went into a shock and back to coma. I really was not ready when I revived my blog. Too many things going that needed my attention at that time but NOW... NOW! I'm free! Just imagine that guy in Braveheart shouting freedom but ten times the intensity and without the head being chopped off of course. =)

FYI, Technically, I have FINISHED SCHOOL but theoretically, I am not done yet, because I still have my attachment/internship. Though I won't be coming to school no more, may be except for briefings and Graduation Day, I'd like to assume I'm done with poly life. Work life and all that crap, here i come!

Speaking of Internship:

I had an internship interview at Thomson Road just now, guess which company? MEDIACORP of course. Both Jun Jie (JJ) and myself went there for our interview with the producers to seal a spot for internship there. Well, for those of you who have never been to their building - Caldecott Broadcast Center, it's damn ULU.

Furthermore, it was my first time going there, JJ too. We have absolutely no idea how to get there, so we printed out the map of the place before hand and tried to make our way there ON FOOT! HAHA! Eventually, like all first timers, going into some unfamiliar location, we got lost. Okay, not really, semi-lost then. HAHA! We over shot the route and ended up tracing back our route and climbing up some hills just to get there.

Imagine this, your tummy is growling and famished, your head hurts from burning heat of the sun, your shoes feel tight and you're sweating like a pig doing marathons. However, I must say it has been a while since I put my body to that kind of torture and it felt good, may be just one of those masochist feeling I guess.

As soon as reach there, after swearing and scolding the signs along the way, we were brought up to the waiting area where we wait for the person in charge to arrive. When I was there, waiting, I noticed some thing, people can get so serious about entertaining someone else eh? HAHA! There was like meeting going on all around us, as I eavesdropped, I can hear laughter, people saying they had financial problem and of course the usual office flirting.

And after all that, I'd still say it's a cool place to work in.

But the best part is, none other than the interview itself. There was a Male Producer (in charge of some department) and another girl, freaking cute girl who is probably his subordinate. The interview was very informal which I find helpful in a way that it let us be ourselves and not be some facade that you're not. The Male Producer was cool and honest, I like, The girl was flirtatious and cute. HAHA! I'm biased, yes, I'm a guy and single, what do you expect me to say?

The dialogue I will remember for the rest of my life:

Girl, Producer's Subordinate: You like entertainment?

zid: Yeah, I love entertaining people!

Girl, Producer's Subordinate: Oh! Really?

zid: Yup, I could entertain you if you want.

Girl, Producer's Subordinate: Okay! Come, I give you 5 minutes and you can do anything in front of me.

zid: (LOL)

Girl, Producer's Subordinate: *Smiles cheekily*

Tsk tsk tsk, I guess I'm flirting as well. Not with an old lady okay? She's only a year older or something. Wooh. Oh yes, and I choke on my drink just thinking about what she said and spat it all out right in front of the MediaCorp logo just outside the Reception Office. HAHA! Lovely.

Okay, hopefully I get in! Wooh. (If don't, JJ, come, help a brother get some love.) WAHAHA!

Damn, I'll miss my poly friends.

End.

REVIVED.

2007-08-04T21:33:00.000+08:00

OFFICIALLY DECLARED, REVIVED.

Commence blogging in a few days after I tweak some stuffs in my blog.

End.

100

2007-06-27T00:34:00.000+08:00

Chapter 99: I'm Not Just A Distraction.

Phoenix Awards, Asian Film, Video & Digital Media

I just reached home from some award ceremony for commercial and advertising film, video and digital media. You know, when you get that jealous feeling seeing all those people smiling from the awards they get, that is what I felt throughout the ceremony. HAH! Even some lame commercial won some of the awards, really! Imagine the video showing someone placing 5 forks on a table and that's it. What the hell right?!!

But anyways, commercial and advertising mediums are very different from entertainment ones, you need quick impact since you only have about a minute or so maximum to sell your product. Entertainment, it's all about introduction, conflict and solution. And I remembered one of the important dudes giving speech said to the audience "I hope you don't venture to feature films because we need these kind of people in our part of the industry."

Guess I was in the wrong place then huh.

Maltesers?

And I still don't know whether it's the correct spelling uh meow. HAHA! I hope you enjoy them okay?

Some times doing some thing special for someone else makes you feel great. =)

Lame Joke.

A Malay lady with a lack of understanding for the English language was walking at a Shopping Mall. Accidentally, she knock into an elderly Englishman, a tourist walking around at the Mall.

Lady: I'm sorry.
Tourist: I'm sorry, too.

The Lady ponders.

Lady: I'm sorry, three.
Tourist: What are you sorry for?
Lady: I'm sorry, five.

LAUGH MY FUCKING ASS OFF UNTIL I DIE NAKED.

Okay, I'm really tired. Not enough sleep.

End.

99

2007-06-20T17:17:00.000+08:00

Chapter 98: Interim.

18 June 2007 was our Interim Presentation for our Final Year Project. For me, it wasn't really a serious presentation day, I'm always like that for any other presentation - I'd rather be spontaneous than be reading the lines from my head. So anyways, Jennifer, our FYP Supervisor suggested we had a themed presentation this time and we did. =)

Army theme! Woohhh..

Group photo of both Team A (in Army uniforms) and Team B (in white) with Jen.

Team A with Jeanine. =D

I forgot what I was laughing at.

Kath and Stan. Fierce, smack the face than you know!

JJ looks so innocent here. How rare.

I was telling them how I was hit by the tiny tsunami wave.

Candid.

I love that day.

I can't wait for NS.

Anyways, I just got a call from FullHouse again to do some filming at Kallang Stadium next week. I said "okay" but in my mind, "shit!". HAHA! Jeanine and a couple of others would know why. So anyways, I guess I'm "officially" freelance-ing then. =D

End.

98

2007-06-17T00:30:00.000+08:00

Chapter 97: Nobody Wants To See Us Together.

"Nobody wants to see us together but it don't matter, no." - Akon "Don't Matter"

Wow, it's so rare that I get hooked with some R&B song. HAHA! This song called "Don't Matter" from Akon just got burnt into my memory just now. Why? Partly because of my friend, udi. Crazy dude keep singing that song and infects me. We used it to disturb humans, cats and pigs.

I went out today to clear my head. =)

iPod Shuffle

I got myself a silver iPod Shuffle (1Gb). My old Creative MP3 causing me shitty problems, so I dumped it. Wooh! Hooray for iPod! Convert to Mac everyone!! I have 2 passes for "Convert-To-Mac OSX" Training Class worth $268 each. Anyone? =D

They're not much of a use for me because I'm already a Mac Convert. Any hardcore Windows PC users wants to be "illuminated", I'd gladly hand these passes to you.

Now, I'm synchronizing it with my Macbook now. Okay, MacLindaLiao meet iDebbieWong.

Let It All Out

Walking down Orchard with my friend, I let it all out. Those remarks that I hold back, those comments you just want to make about other people. I just let it out. HAHA! And by that I mean disturbing the living shit out of people. I feel so light headed as if disturbing humans is my drug.

And yeah, on the way home, I saw lots of cats loitering around the void deck. I don't know why, I just like to approach them. When I saw one, I sang "nobody wants to see us together" while opening my arms towards them. They ran like hell, freaking cute.

Sometime I just need to go out, disturb some people, call them pigs and approach cats. All that stress and inner depression I have, just went down the drain. Cool! Woohhh..

PETA?

Ever heard of PETA, People for Ethical Treatment of Animals?

If you haven't heard about them, do visit the website but if you value yourself being a omnivore, someones who eats meat and vegetables, visit but at your own discretion. Basically they are activist fighting for the rights of animals worldwide. They protest, riot and also destroy public property just for their cause.

I am all in for ethical treatment of animals but I don't want to take it from Vegetarian Extremists. I believe in doing no harm against any animals but I don't believe eating meat is considered as murdering them.

Like Al Gore's Inconvenient Truth film, this organization just uses the same tactic - psychology and over exaggerating content. They put a certain emotion into play, in this case guilt and pity to force you to accept their agenda.

Sorry to say that I'm not going to be a Vegetarian any day. Let nature takes it place, animals kill animals for food, do remember we are part of the food chain, at the very least, very high in the food chain.

I'll die for animals but I won't stop eating meat.

End.

97

2007-06-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

Chapter 96: Start The Nightmare Machine.

Okay, I like dreams, they're your mind playing out your inner wants and needs that can't be fulfill during the day. How about nightmares? Nightmares are very distressful dream which usually forces at least a partial awakening of the person from sleep. The dreamer may feel a number of emotions: guilt, fear, anger or sadness.

I have been having nightmares lately and if that's not disturbing enough, I kind of like them. Better than wet dreams, okay wait, they're on par.

Nightmare, 2 Nights Ago.

I woke up in the morning, weird, everything looks so cloudy around me. Only grey cold sun light piercing through my skin. I look around, feeling dazed and cold. As soon as I stepped onto the icy cold floor, I am transfered into the streets. A bugis-looking area, more of a look a like I guess. Everything is in Sepia Tint. Very 80s looking I must say, the building look old and dilapidated.

I walk around with this strange narrator, talking in some weird language and I can see myself strolling down the shop houses of the bugis area. I can sense cars passing me by but not because I can see them, all I see is blue, red, orange streaks of light drawn through the road before fading away. I can hear them, smell them but why do they move so fast? Then the narrator started speaking English, "No MRTs, this is our world".

I blurt out the fuck word in a the thought of this. I walk as fast as I could, I couldn't remember where am I but something seems to be holding my wrist, directing me, somewhere. For a moment there, I thought I knew where I was, then it became clear the shop houses becomes haunting and a tall dark black tower looms over them. "The tower Khrushchev built in honor of us, it can never touch rain or it will melt" it or whoever the fuck it is, said.

I close my eyes, I was sitting on a roof of a car. There I was, another lady on the other end of the roof of the car. I stared at her, she stared at me. She said something but I can't hear her, loss of hearing? She laughed and turn away and assumes the stare at me all over again. She started talking again, rains starts pouring, black rain, drenching her, drenching me, pitch blackness overcomes me.

I woke up staring into the ceiling till the first shine of morning creeps through the crack between the windows.

Nightmare, 1 Night Ago.

I woke up in darkness, in the middle of the night, I hear noises in the living room. Everyone's awake. I don't get it, why would everyone be up so late, I mean early, in the morning. Some how, I feel a sinister feeling coming as I turned the bronze door knob of my room door. I hear screaming here and there, just suddenly these horrible noises invades my ears as if it's 1942.

My heart start thumping as if I have a few more beats before I drop dead, I could feel the beat against my ribs, against my chest dying to get out. I turn to my parent's room, I push the door slightly with enough energy to kill an ant. The door move slightly, creaking like as if it's so old and made of heavy red meranti. The next thing I saw, was so evil, I can't explain the details here. Let's just say "something" choke the living shit out of my dad. I didn't help.

Some gibberish noise fades in as I slowly walk backwards from my parent's room, the door closes by itself as if something is implying "that's all you'll see, boy". I turned around, I saw my mother staring directly into the kitchen's window. I run to her side, trying to be her protector, looking as cool and calm as I could though in my mind, something between my legs, shrunk.

What kept her rooted to the ground? A headless lady floating outside the window, breathing though it has no head. It moves from side to side as if preparing to charge into my house. We started breathing heavily, more intense than I ever breathe. I could hear my mother praying, quickly and without taking time to swallow her saliva. I was so scared...

I woke up saying the same prayer under my breath. I didn't sleep until day breaks.

I await my nightmare tonight...

I'm going to the doctor tomorrow. Get some meds.

End.

96

2007-06-05T23:09:00.000+08:00

Chapter 95: Body To Underwear, Underwear To Spine.

Animation

You know, NO you don't, Animation is very, very tedious and tiring. It takes a very patient and committed person to animate beautifully. It's just not in me. Really. I can't sit in front of the computer for too long, just staring at the vertexes and polygons of the animation. No offense to animators, I'd rather do film editing any day.

Today, My God, such a mentally tiring day. Why? Well, because of animation of course. You see the thing about animation is that if you don't see the product developing to your wants, and it keeps deviating far from what you envision, it is oh, too demoralizing. It either turns out really nice or turns out to be ugly as hell. Sweet chocolate candy or smelly shit, has always been either of those two.

Look at what we're doing. I'd say, it's a semi sweet chocolate candy but partly shitty.

Oh yes! Lego man they are. =)

Arghh!! And the deadline for the animation to be ready is this Thursday! "God damn!", I hate the pressure of having limited time to complete it. Moreover, we have a long way before even completing the animation, I say still at 35% done? Yeah, that's about right. Anyways, I'm planning to go to JJ's house to animate tomorrow. Wait, let me re-phrase that, I'm going to run from Tampines (my home) to Tanah Merah (JJ's house) to animate. =P

Er, shit, so many stuffs to complete by this week. Can I get hit by an accident or get rape by someone so I can at least buy more time?

I guess not right, unless someone's willing to run me down but not to kill me or rape me so that I'll get traumatise. Anyone?? =)

My Staircase Landing

Some few posts ago, I rant about some dude who "inhabits" my staircase landing, piling up his junk there blocking the exit, leaving a small narrow space to move. Well, apparently, a few weeks ago, some HDB Officers came to inspect, cleared the junk and fined him $400. He went Missing In Action for some time and a few days ago, he returned! Shit, this dude's persistent.

Now he's still at the staircase landing, piling up his junk that he collected, fiddling with them. Okay, the last time I said "pity the dude for being homeless" and all. I changed my mind, fuck that. He's becoming a nuisance to society. Reasons, because he illegally create a junk collection point in a residential place, he steals some of the junk (heard from my neighbours he stole a handphone and a brand new digital camera from some kids playing soccer) and he pollutes my corridor by smoking regularly. To add that, he's been in jail for drug addiction.

Furthermore, he's pissing me off with the ugly cigarette smell that looms outside my corridor. Ergh!! I can smell it from here. We're gonna report him to HDB Officers again later this week. Shit, if that ain't going to work, I'm going to put on my Scream Mask, get myself a dark black robe, take out a long sharp knife and terrorise the living shit out of him at night while he's sleeping. That'd be so cool! Any of you up to terrorise some dude?? You could be your own hero. HAHA!

Misc

These past few weeks, I've been saying stuffs I don't really mean and eventually it'll result in nothing. I don't know why I keep instigating. Shit, I shouldn't do that. I promise myself I'm not going to that anymore. So if I say something from now onwards, I mean it! And if I say I'm going to do something, I better hell do it! Sir, yes sir!

Words I remember today:

"Fresh as Puma."
"Link the body to the underwear, the underwear to the spine."
"How many times I pee seh today?!"
"Fresh as Puma." =)

P.S: Eh, that means I want to get run down or rape and terrorise the homeless dude. Oh hell yeah, life's just waiting to begin, dear.

End.

95

2007-05-31T00:02:00.000+08:00

Chapter 94: I Want.

I want to go around taking pictures (again).
I want to go Ubin, cycle the same route and bang into the same tree.
I want to go somewhere haunted, be afraid and run away in fear (again).
I want to run away feeling so scared that I fart while sprinting.
I want to explore Singapore further, just take the public transport, run around everywhere.
I want to camp somewhere and watch the world go by.
I want to write a resume to BlackMagic Design.
I want to work with a Production Company for Internship.
I want to learn to be a Producer/Writer.
I want to, don't care if I have to start from being a Tape Operator.
I want to finish my FYP quickly.
I want to get my Diploma as soon as possible.
I want to graduate, NOW! HAHA! NOW I say.
I want to do something real EVIL as soon as I get my Diploma.
I want to freelance while waiting for National Service.
I want to sign on for Army, 10 years contract.
I want to further my studies as soon as my contract starts.
I want to serve my remaining contract in style.
I want to return to the Production scene.
I want to travel the world.
I want to go shoot guns.
I want to go shoot guns with the people I like.
I want to go vandalize my name on the Eiffel Tower.
I want to throw a Molotov Cocktail down the Barrier Reef.
I want to witness the Sun rising in Japan.
I want to sit down at a drink stall, sipping coffee at Turkey.
I want to experience Russia's deadly winter.
I want to go to England and disturb the Guards at the Ben Tower.
I want to go Taiwan, I want to see Linda Liao la damn it.
I want to go Indonesia, I want to see Aqni Partistha la damn it.
I want to get lost in the Amazon, get surrounded by Hungry Tribal ladies.
I want to go home.
I want to be wealthy.
I want to buy my mum her gold.
I want to buy my brother his apartment in New York.
I want to buy my friends fake branded goods.
I want to do more and more films.
I want to meet Spielberg and shake his hands, pat his balls.
I want to meet Peter Jackson and shake his hands, pat his balls.
I want to meet Neil Gaiman and shake his long sharp fingers, tap at his weird black button eyes.
I want to meet a beautiful girl.
I want to let her feel my heartbeat.
I want to be committed.
I want to marry near a river.
I want to race the clock with her.
I want to have 11 kids.
I want to set up Zid Football Club.
I want to see my children grow up, not like me.
I want to grow old with my loved ones.
I want to die by a river.

End.

94

2007-05-26T00:06:00.000+08:00

Chapter 93: Poetically Blissful.

Had a such a marvelous day today,
I can't deny, neither could them, no way.
Those silver lining I saw,
They turn out to be euphoria.

The trip to Changi Naval Base,
Oh! I would love to have a second taste.
Boats, Ships and Frigates, Oh My!
Those JC dudettes hips don't lie! =)

I tried. (I have this kind of picture ever year. Really.)

Jun tried.

Jeanine pulled it off. I don't know, ladies with guns turn me on.

Oh yes! Army Open House, September 07 @ Pasir Laba Camp. I'm psyched!

HAHA! Vindication never felt so sweet for them. I was stepped on. =D

I'll sing you something soft,
Sad or delicate,
Or loud and out of key,
I'll sing you anything!

PS: More pictures to come! =) One day, we'll look back at this and wish we could relive the moment.

End.

93

2007-05-23T23:45:00.000+08:00

Chapter 92: I Would Kill For This.

**//startRant.print//**

Ever lead a life, living as though the world revolves around you? Squirrels sing to your name when you walk out of your house. Butterflies dance around your every movement. The sun rise and set just for you. People greet you whenever they see you, men stand at attention and salute you, girls shrug their silky banks aside and smile at you, just to you.

That's called being self centered, moronic and heartless. Basically, an arsehole who does not give a rat's ass about people's feeling.

I just happened to be that guy a few days ago and I can tell you, deep inside I feel like shit. If I had a gun now, I'd blow my freaking head off. I feel bad for not thinking for that someone who always cared for me even though at times it would seem that her head would be on the chopping block. I regretted not thinking about you. I'm so sorry for what I did.

Yeah, I'm skilled at camouflaging my real intention and feeling, because if I did open up, I'd make Hannibal, Shakespeare, Stone Cold and Bush look like Child's shit. Really, no kidding.

I'm writing this to apologize to that special someone. If you're reading this, sorry would probably mean nothing now but I'll say it anyway- Sorry, Sorry, Sorry again.

And I really, really, really feel that something is going to happen next week. I have a feeling it's going to be something bad! I can bet you. I'll take what ever head on, not afraid to die for my sins, I would kill for resolution. It's okay, if I get kick out, holler me up to Tekong. If I don't, I'll gladly scrub the toilet but no consuming inedible stuffs!

**//endRant.print//**

Boring day today. Went to school to hand up some documents to SAA by noon. I went to Lido (hfz shut up!) after that, open my MacBook, did my E-Learning stuffs and slack alone while waiting for Udi to arrive. That's the first time in a while that I called a friend to "lepak", Malay slang for "to slack". Soon after, we went around disturbing people just to distress. I love lame jokes and crazy talk, they're so fun.

Oh Yeah!!! And we saw some African Man being pulled away by some Malay Prostitute into some dark alley, behind some building opposite SMU, while her Prostitute friends cheer her on. We were like WTF.

Felt like shit but lame jokes cheered me up. =)

If you need a quick laughter, please watch this! I sprained my cheeks just laughing at this..

Ghost Rider Prank.

Anyone up for doing this stunt in Singapore, tell me!!!!!!!!

Okay, I need lots of fun, laughter and milk. Anyone up for that, tell me! aIN, I wanna see the finished film photos that you took!!! Meow?, hoi, I'll get your blog up and running by the end of this week okayyy?? =)

Things to feel:

Euphoria (again)
Normal Student-Supervisor Relationship
Being cared (again)

I would kill for all this, I would, I would, I would.

End.

92

2007-05-18T20:37:00.000+08:00

Chapter 91: Notice.

I'm starting to fashion an idea in the deepest region of my mind.
Where I would impress you to laughters and tears that you long to find.
So quiet, another sun rise, another sun set, wasted, did you notice?
I heard about your regrets but my breath wasted, gone unnoticed

A few days ago, wait, it was on Wednesday, I went around Bugis with aIN and her friend, Hidir(hope I got the spelling right) taking random shots of Singapore. Random as in really random shots like cats, some burnt shop house, panoramic view of the Bugis area and an abandoned yet accessible shophouse we happen to stumble upon!

BUT...................

Later that night, something fucked up happened! ARGH! The Memory Card in my Canon EOS 350D went dead! Shit!! All those beautiful pictures which I spend hours taking, gone just like that. The Memory Card reads "CF Error". Damn it! And NO..

I don't blame you, aIN. =)

I blame PC. =D

I hope everyone convert to Mac in the future. For more information visit Apple.sg

Oh, by the way. Yesterday night, while I was bored, I went to Miss Universe 2007's website. Hey, it's a free country okay! I can do what I want as long as it's in the boundary of the law. And I'm freaking rooting for Miss Universe Indonesia!!!! (Sorry, Miss Universe Singapore)

Introducing Agni Partistha Arkadewi. (Mouthful name huh?)

Wooh.

At the bottom right hand corner reads : "Inspirasi make up memang bisa datang dari mana saja. Tidak ada salahnya jika sesekali anda mencoba tampli dengan rias wajah yang natural dan berkesan lembut, di kesempatan istimewa."

Basically means her inspiration for her make up doesn't really come from any where. I can't really grasp what's the other stuffs are, something about being natural and looking more subtle. HAH! Mind you Malay and Bahasa Indonesia does have their differences.

And I almost had (good) fits just looking at this picture...

Okay, I need to "turun senjata*" now. =P

P.S: It's okay aIN, haha! You don't suck la. PC sucks. Oh yeah, Catwoman - you diam uh! =D *turun senjata - weapons down.

End.

91

2007-05-14T20:52:00.000+08:00

Chapter 90: The Sunset Period.

These butterflies' useless, these white Panadol pills are just so kind. I have given a lot of thought on this one hour ride home. I miss the polished limestone where we sat past eight or nine and slowly finished laughing in the glow of our hand phone lights. I have given a lot of thoughts to the seconds I used to have, the dates have come and gone, our fragile lives past so fast. I faintly remember breathing on my bedroom floor, where I laid and told myself not to play this game any more.

Just think of this and me as just a few of the many things, that lie around, that clutter up your shelves. I wish that you were awake because there is so many things I would like to say to you. It's amazing how feeling more and the less you say while feeling less and the more you'll say. I like to think of myself as a red balloon, I'll fly or I'll crash, no hovering and no mediocrity. Some times I feel defeated but I'm not broken, so I spread my wings, soar through the emerald sky, unsheathe my Katana and fight misery.

Hah! I love writing nonsense and everyone will interpret it as something. Oh yeah, by the way, I'm going to shave my head G.I/Marine style this week. Just for the fun of it. And yeah, planning to go snapping some pictures of "Singapore Lifestyle" with aIN too, going to test out her "new" old Canon EOS 888 camera. I'll loan out the school's Canon EOS 350 too! Okay, okay, I'll post up the pictures soon.

Not in the best of health and mind these days. Why? I'll ask God later. =\

End.

90

2007-05-10T21:12:00.000+08:00

Chapter 89: Beauty In Blue.

I kept seeing this sick pigeon every time I came home.

Tonight, I don't see it anymore.

I don't know what's going on with my body these few days. I have chills and cold sweat in the cold MRT on the way to school. I have loss of appetite recently, forcing myself to have healthy intake of food every lunch. I can't sleep well either, waking up every few hours before falling back to sleep. Every time I wake up in the middle of the night, my mind wanders. Fatigue and nausea sets in every now and then. I don't know why, really.

Well, seeing a beauty in blue today empowered me. Looked really really really good in blue. =)

End.

89

2007-05-03T21:18:00.000+08:00

Chapter 88: The Gift.

There's a strangest excitement yesterday and if you're happy then you're welcome to hear. I received a gift and it blew me away, from the land of the setting sun straight to here. It's like the rush of euphoria has gone straight to the brain.

But my voice is as lonely as loud and as I whisper this joy to you.

And suddenly, you've done it all, you won me over in no time at all.

And know, I'll fight the storm if it rains. I'll light a path far from here, I'll make your fear melt away and the world we know, shall disappear.

If you ask, I will do what you say. All we have is this night to get through, with the cheeks to your smile, you're the only. You left me all up in arms and confused.

Oh God, I feel like I'm in it for now and how this kiss will be one roughly vague.

I swear I'll melt if you touch me at all but then I'll ask you to do it again and again.

And suddenly, you've done it all. You won me over in not time at all.

Make the world we know disappear. Oh, now.

P.S: Guess it's an extract from which song? Azri should know. HAHA! Oh by the way, Happy ORD to LTA. Sean! Welcome back to being a Civilian dude! And yeah, I think someone's hot. Wooh!~

End.

88

2007-04-28T13:26:00.000+08:00

Chapter 87: Screwed For Life.

Yesterday, I had the time of my freaking life! It was the day that all kinds of emotions hit me at once and I didn't really know how to feel. HAHA! Well, let me tell you what happened on that marvelous day.

In the morning, Jasm, Stan and myself had filming at Marina Bay for our Final Year Project. Apparently, we were there to film the RSN(Republic of Singapore Navy) Speedboats doing stunts at the Bay. Upon reaching there, we thought it was going to be one of those mundane filming where all we can film is the people talking and planning, but we're dead wrong (well for me that is)!!!!

One of the Navy Operators, probably the one in charge because he's doing the co-ordinating and commands, told us that only 2 crew members could go on board the Speedboats and film on it. I was elated, oh hell yeah! Everyone wanted to go, who doesn't right?! It's a one in a life time experience. Out of the kindness of Jasm's heart, she told us boys to go instead. Awww. Okay! HAHA!

However, once we reached the docking area at the Marina Bay, the Navy Operators told us that there is a change of plans, only one crew member could go. I turned and looked at Stan, he was holding the Libec Tripod and I was holding the HDV Camera, so how? I'm GOING! Woohooo! HAHA! And the Navy Operator told me to put on his Navy vest for safety purposes. It's not like the Army's MPV+SBO. This is way cooler. HAH!

And yes, I'm smiling from ear to ear. Though, deep inside I know that I'm afraid for the HDV camera. What if it is to fall into the water? or water were to hit it and render it useless?? ARGH! Heck! The excitement of riding the Speedboats is just unbearable.

Woohooo! And away we go! For your information, the Navy Operator told me that the first run for the stunt will be done "slower". (Note this word for later use)

So we made a turn all the way back into the edge of the Bay, somewhere near to the Construction site opposite the Esplanade. Their stunt sounds simple, but it's tricky to pull. They are supposed to accelerate all the way from the the other side all the way to the edge of Esplanade's Bay side, and do a quick E (Emergency) Break and 90 degrees turn to their left before dashing off.

The time is here, to carry on with the stunt. The Speedboat driver and navigator pulled back the acceleration lever and off we go, moving at high speeds on the water. The salt water splashing onto my face and the wind is howling as if it is in Russia's deadly winter. As they reached the turning point, the driver pulled the lever further and suddenly jerks it back to the front to create the E break effect. Wow! I CANNOT explain how intense that moments was, as soon as the Speedboat halts, a tiny tsunami swept through us....

FRYING the school's expensive HDV Camera useless. He said it was going to be SLOW!! FUCK!

BUT!! BUT the stunt was incredible!!!!!! It totally knock my socks off!!! Woohoooo!!! I was shouting vulgarities in excitement as the driver, navigator and some other Navy dude in there was just laughing their ass off, probably thinking I'm a noob. Yeah, okay, I am but great maneuvering guys!! Mighty awesome! Salutes~

So anyways, I'm still waiting to face the music. Undoubtedly, a lil' scared but hey! I'd rather be happy because of the Speedboat ride than be sad for the camera's destruction!

So yeah, may be I'll have to work for the school to repay the camera. May be I'll be a technician at SMIT/SB, janitor at CLS or open a stall at fc6 selling Hello Pandas and poetry.

End.

87

2007-04-26T22:45:00.000+08:00

Chapter 86: Read Between My Lines.

I'm like Switzerland, a country that practice neutrality, direct democracy and affirms the concept of "for the people, by the people". I live around nations that are at conflict with each other, be it openly or secretly. They defame each other, putting blame and criticizing one another but at rare times, they descend upon my land, under the flag of neutrality and non-conflict to discuss on future peaceful solutions. Sometimes they succeed, sometimes they don't and continue the mud-sling.

I'm like a lone single Jet Fighter Pilot. I have been shot once a few years ago, I was forced to eject as my plane crash and burn into the blue murky ocean. A shrapnel from the plane stab my chest, almost puncturing my heart. I was never the same again from that day onwards. I fly through the orange sky with utmost caution. Every single time I see my target, I lock on but never dared to press the "engage" button. I know how it feels like to be shot down. Today, I still soar through, alone and fingers away from the button. I seek that perfect target.

I'm like those nerdy card collector, pushing up my glasses, looking over my shoulder to check if anyone sees my precious cards. I collect various kinds of cards, even rare ones and even those which are not useful for the time being. When I play a certain card game, I like to hold numerous of cards in my hand, I don't keep to a certain group or class. I love variety. Though I would love to find that specific card and tattoo it to my fat nerdy ass.

End.

86

2007-04-13T18:20:00.000+08:00

Chapter 85: "Lubricant" Hands, I have.

I was "un-screwing" some stuff at home just now, literally and not metamorphically. It was actually those keyboard platform that's mounted under the computer desk. I wanted to take it out because I have no use of it and that it's blocking my legs from actually "spreading" under the desk. Don't ask me why I need my legs to spread. Don't.

So anyways, I was turning the god-damn screwdriver, trying to unscrew the screws that attached the keyboard platform to the table. Lying under the table, twisting and turning, scolding vulgarities as I force my hands to twist the screwdriver. Dusty and freaking hot, I got dust all over my body just now. Imagine that -- sweat and dust, killer combination.

After 10 minutes trying to unscrew those screws, I finally gave up and my mother came in. She wondered what the hell was I doing in my room, sweating, on the floor, groaning and swearing. So I told her my intention, she picked up the screwdriver and asked me why is it so wet? How the hell should I know. Haha! Then she happily unscrew them with much ease, I was like what the fuck?!

And then she told me that my hand was sweating causing it to be difficult to unscrew the screw. Yeah! It's only then that I noticed it. I do have sweaty palms. It gets warm quickly when in contact with something or anything for that matter! No wonder every time I get agitated or nervous, it starts getting all warm and a lil' "lubricated". Funny.

That explains why I can't unscrew those freaking screws! Anyone have the same problem as I do? Well, actually I don't see it as a problem, really. I look on the bright side -- I have "NATURALLY LUBRICATED" HANDS! WAHAHAHAHAA. What does warm lubricated hands can do, or should I say fingers do??!

Build sandcastles of course! What were you thinking???! My gosh, and I thought my post sounds dirty. =D

End.

85

2007-04-07T16:29:00.000+08:00

Chapter 84: Presentation.

We had a presentation a couple of days ago. It was at Nee Soon Camp, where the Combat Engineers are based and we were to present in front of about 80 Executive Committee members who run the National Day Parade 2007. Let me tell you, it was nerve-racking because I have never present to so many people before! Moreover, from the faces of my teammates, I know they're on the same boat as me -- nervous but anxious to get it done.

Here are some pictures from the presentation:

Practising before everyone arrives.

Smile huh. Who say you can smile?!!! =P

Bibijen, our Lecturer and FYP Supervisor. Who say you can smile too?! =D

I'm presenting.

zid: "You two over there, stop touching each other!"

Emo Team A (Infra).

Happy Team A (Infra).

FYP: NDP '07, Team A (Infra) with Supervisor.

We had a fine day. =)

End.

84

2007-03-29T13:19:00.000+08:00

Chapter 83: Rain, Rain, Don't Go Away.

It's raining today. Really. I'm sitting in my room covered in darkness of the grey skies above. Feel so gothic.

A view from the window. Don't get me wrong, I love rainy days. They're so cool, pun intended. =)

Awaken.

By the way, today's a weird day for me. Why? I feel like talking about my surrounding in my blog, for once. First of all, I was awaken by this stupid damn construction worker who keeps shouting at people's ajar window. Yeah, I get it, he's cleaning the exterior of the HDB and all but you could at least have a little courtesy right?

"HALO!, HALO!, HALOOOOO?!!" Screams the idiot on the picture who's bending down. Bitch. Luckily for him it was not my window that he's shouting into or he'll get pee-ed or even cum in the face. Yes, I'm evil.

Corridor Stranger.

For a while now, there's this strange elderly dude who keeps coming to my staircase landing with his stuffs and fiddling with them. No! I don't mean that in a bad way. HAH! He just sits there with his boxes of unused goods -- telephones, television, radio etc. and tries to fix them. I don't know what's his motive for being there but I can tell you that he's homeless because I have seen him there a couple of times.

Yeah, kinda annoying when you see truck loads of "stuffs" in your corridor and they're not yours. My Bro, I guess, is pissed off with the nuisance that the guy brings. Honestly, I say it too that it could be irritating to walk along the corridor with so many stuffs lying around. My Bro suggest we should do something about it, HAH!

Well, at times I do feel irritated because, as you know Singaporeans, they will assume it's your rubbish and they blame it on you for not keeping your corridor clean. However, I must say at the same time I feel bad for him being homeless and all. How would you feel if you're homeless? I'd feel like shit. Home, is after all your personal paradise and your private womb whether you like it or not.

Let's just see what happens though.

I just have to put this. =)

Wooh. This picture made my day. HAHA! I can't wait for the next episode of After Hours. Linda's really really fucking HOT!

End.

83

2007-03-23T11:41:00.000+08:00

Chapter 82: Rule Of The Third Prize.

Angela May:" Now let's move on to the Prize Winners. The third place winner of $2, 500 goes to Muhamad Yazid for SQ117!"

WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I'm elated as hell when I got it! But I was disappointed because I didn't get the First Prize. Damn, NEVERMIND!

It was held at the Singapore National Museum and I went with hFz, Jasm, Kath & Joel (thanks guys for being there!). Funny, when we reached the holding area outside the theatre, all of the people there gave us the look of "Hey! Are they in the right place?" Ouh yeah, apart from Angela May(HOT!), we saw Nadya Hutagalung and Irene Ang up close. Cool! Luckily we met someone we knew, Quek Chee Siong! One of the peeps in our SMIT's Management. We're close to him because he did thought us once for Project Management Module.

Anyways, look out for the next issue of FIRST and maybe the newspapers today or tomorrow. HAH! Catch me in it! Weeee.

Hrmm. I should hang this somewhere.

My name forever immortalize in Panasonic-MDA Digital Film Fiesta of 2006.

$2.5K in my hand. What shall I do with it? I DON'T KNOW.

By the way, there's a Crystal Trophy to go along with it. Hah! I'm all geared up for the next Panasonic-MDA Digital Film Fiesta 07. Here, I COME!!!!

Happily ever after below the waist!

End.

82

2007-03-15T21:57:00.000+08:00

Chapter 81: 300

"Prepare For Glory!"

Fuyohhh! I went to watch "300" today with Stan, hFz, Claire, Jas and Kath at Cathay Cineleisure. It is freaking awesome! Anyways, it was Claire's birthday today, SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. I can bet with you that it's worth your S$6.50/8.50 with its stunning cinematography, slow-mo/fast-forward effects and its beautiful visual effects. Incredible how they made use of the wonders of Blue/Green Screen Technology. Damn, how I envy them.

I love the effects they used. I believe the post-production is hell for them, the painted blood, CG scenery, CG limbs/heads flying/birds/elephant. Wow. I must applaud them on their amazing efforts. Hats off to you! The sound is great too, like hFz said, really makes you wanna charge through the movie screen. HAH!

I still don't understand why Persian King Xerves sent those giant elephants. All they did was roared at the Spartans and fell off the cliff and into the sea below. I laughed my ass off!

I don't know about the ones who have watched 300 but I mighty love those "Immortals". They look freaking cool! -- Well, they don't really look as buff and ripped as the Spartans but these Immortals looked like Ninjas! Way cooler and won my vote for the best looking characters in the film.

My Critique:

Overall Score: 8/10

Story Line: 5.5/10

Cinematography/VEFX: 12/10 =)

Favourite Scene: Battle between Spartans & Immortals.

Dude I find weird: Persian King Xerves himself, damn, he dressed like some Tranny, which King dresses like that?!

Funniest Scene: King Leonidas asked his wife, "what must a King do?", something about how to tackle the issue of fighting the war on a sacred month (on that month no Spartan shall have any war). The next scene...

They had sex. LAUGH MY ASS OFF.

A must watch for people who love action pack films.

End.

81

2007-03-14T13:23:00.000+08:00

Chapter 80: How Have I Been?

Okay. I lost my handphone and I lost all the important informations in there, I have just found out that the incoming weeks will be hell week for me and my friends because of so many projects. A couple of my close buddies will be leaving for National Service (all the best to you guys!). Last but not least, there's way too many assignments to be done. SHIT. And yeah, having slight flu and sore throat. GOD DAMN IT.

My Handphone

I would like to give a shoutout to the idiot who took my handphone and took out the handphone's SIM card when I called -- "HEY, I HOPE YOU HAVE A TINY WEENER". I told someone before, I'm not sure who, we had an argument about what happens if you found a handphone and what will you do. Call me whatever, but I BELIEVE in giving back the handphone to it's rightful owner. Do whatever, call, wait, ring some numbers in the handphone and try to reach the owner.

Urgh, hell. Nevermind, I'll get a new one later today. Though I miss my Linda Liao wallpaper on my handphone. Goodbye.

National Service Bound Buddies

You know, just thinking about this reminds me of Green Day's "Jesus Of Suburbia". It really sings to the tunes of a "temporary" goodbye. I wish all of you who are going to BOOK IN either to PA or Tekong all the best. Some of my close buddies like my jogging partner will be off to Tekong too. Enjoy your time there, dude.

Remember -- "INHALE, AIM, PULSE, SQUEEZE, EXHALE!!!" Good day to you all!

Hell Week Ahead

NTU Pre-U Seminar Project and NDP "The Making Of 07" Project. 2 Major projects running concurrently and having lots of meetings and presentation for both of them. All the important events of these projects will happen somewhere in the coming 3 to 4 weeks. I just really want to get Polytechnic life over and done with, quickly.

Contrary to some people's opinion, I believe Polytechnic/Tertiary life are just a kind of transition life, from which it fills the void in between teenage and adulthood. It's best left short, 2 or 3 years maximum.

I can't wait to move on with life.

End.

80

2007-03-08T17:53:00.000+08:00

Chapter 79: SHORTLISTED!

Guess what?! I have just recieved an e-mail from one of the organisers of the Panasonic-MDA Digital Film Fiesta! I took part in the Scriptwriting Competition, Feature Film Category and I have been shortlisted as a FINALIST!!! WOOOHOOOOOO. You don't know how elated I am right now! =D

"Dear Muhamad Yazid,

Congratulations! We are pleased to inform you that your entry "SQ117" have been shortlisted as a finalist in the Scriptwriting Competition for the Feature Film category."

YESAAAAAA!!! Woohooo! The results will be announced at the National Museum, 22 March 07. Do wish me luck ya! I wanna WIN! =)

Jumping up and down 'til my balls ache.

End.

79

2007-03-07T11:45:00.000+08:00

Chapter 78: Academic Results 06.

Here's the result for the semester 2 of my second academic year in SP's DMMT:

To be honest with you, I was kind of shock when I got my results. Hah! The main reason is that because this is the second semester that I slacked and concentrated on only the modules I liked. I was really hoping to get DIST for Visual Effects but I got A but the most unexpected thing is -- a Distinction for Media Law & Policy?! WAHAHAHAHA. I didn't even study as in really hardcore for that module, man.

Urgh! My results are always like that, I'll do better for those modules that have little credit and the ones I like but I didn't study. That's just me, I guess.

End.

78

2007-03-06T14:07:00.000+08:00

Chapter 77: We Are The Waiting Unknown.

Do you know that we spend half of our life waiting? Hence, theoretically, we are only active almost only half of the time we live, am I correct?

You wait for your Mother/Father/Siblings/Relatives/Pet to get out of the toilet.
You wait for the water to heat up/cool down before having your bath/shower.
You wait to finish up your "business".
You wait to drink your milo/coffee/orange juice because you have to prepare them.
You wait for the lift to go down of your Housing estate.
You wait for the freaking slow bus to arrive!
You wait for the freaking bus to arrive to your destination.
You wait for the train to arrive.
You wait for the train to arrive to your destination.
You wait for the crowd to move into the escalator.
Once you reach to your office, you wait for the computer to reboot.
You wait for various programs in your computer to load.
You wait for someone else to finish up photocopying their documents.
You wait for photocopying machine to make a copy of your documents.
You wait at the lift lobby for the lift to arrive at your storey.
You wait in the queue to buy your lunch.
You wait for your colleagues to have lunch together.
You wait for your colleagues to finish eating.
You wait at the lift lobby for the lift to arrive at your storey.
You wait for various programs in your computer to save and exit.
Once you finished your work, you wait for the computer to shut down.
You wait for the crowd to move into the escalator.
You wait for the train to arrive.
You wait for the train to arrive to your destination.
You wait for the freaking slow bus to arrive!
You wait for the freaking slow bus to arrive to your destination.
You wait in the queue to buy dinner.
You wait for the stall owner to return your change.
You wait for the lift to arrive at your Estate's lift lobby.
You wait for the lift to reach your apartment's storey.
You wait for your spouse to reach home.
You wait for your favourite television programme.
You wait for your spouse to get on the bed.
You wait for your spouse to undress.
You wait for it...come.
You sleep almost half 0f the day off.

We wait for something, everything and anything 50% of the time. So don't believe anyone if they told you that you're impatient because you're always waiting for them. Hey, you're even waiting for them to finish up their remarks and comments. Chances are, you're probably waiting for something right now.

Gosh.

This is so philosophical. Makes me want to do a Short Film on 'Waiting'. Hrmm, maybe I will. =)

End.

77

2007-02-28T13:21:00.000+08:00

Chapter 76: Unsuccessful Fuck.

I just returned from my jogging routine with my friend, soaking wet from the rain and sweat, I opened the mailbox under my void deck, disappointment struck me like an arrow through the heart. Fuck. My application for the Joint Polytechnic-SAF Diploma Scheme was unsuccessful.

"We wish you all the best for your future endeavours..."

Go fuck your.......

Really disappointed and pissed off. Well, on the bright side, this could be a blessing in disguise. Maybe the Great Geometer above us have other plans for me. Oh yeah, Geometer is just another name for God, Hah!. I know, it's no use crying over torn undies, so I won't.

Just for your information, the thing that I applied for is a Bond/Scholarship and not a Contract. Therefore, I would understand why they would not take me, probably because I'm in year 3 now and the prime candidates for such scholarship would be newly graduated secondary school kids. "Nevermind", I told myself.

As soon as I finish my Polytechnic Education, I'll apply for the Army Contract before my National Service. "I get knock down but I get up again, you'll never gonna keep me down".

Oh yeah, by the way, I don't know what to do for the holidays. Don't say work, because my life doesn't revolve around money. =)

Frustrated and running on Adrenaline.

End.

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2007-02-22T11:54:00.000+08:00

Chapter 75: Respect VS Respect For The Elderly.

I want every right minded youths and young adults to look at the following video from youtube.com carefully. Look at it critically.

My Thoughts:

Firstly, like what I have commented on the youtube page with this video on, people should understand the ultimate meaning of respect. Many people would get confuse over respect in it's own entirety and respect for the elders. Yes, the young guy took a couple of shots at the old man and ran. Notice, the young guy does not execute "violence of action" which is to completely stop the old man from further assaulting him or trying to do so.

I tenaciously believe that you must not let anyone step over your head and insults you like you are nothing. I do not care whether be it some elderly person or just another young adult like you and me. If they ever make me lose their respect by disrespecting me in a way that I cannot tolerate, I will make sure they suffer the consequences.

As you can see in the video above, I do not know who started the argument but who starts the ball rolling in terms of physical assault? As you can see in the video, once the young guy unlocks the exit of the bus, the old man starts kicking the young guy's leg and in a fit of anger, the young guy respond. Beating the old man silly, just enough to make sure he learns his lesson and leaving him immediately after.

My Personal Experience:

However, I doubt the old man learns his lesson. The reason I'm on the young guy's side is because, honestly, I have experience this kind of things before, only that I did not beat the old guy up. It happened when I was in Secondary 3, returning home from Whitesands Mall, I was reading my Newpaper, walking along the Pasir Ris Interchange when I saw this old man walking towards me while looking at me. I look down on my Newpaper and continued reading and what happened next?

The old man, hits my shoulder with his shoulder as if trying to say something! I was like What The Fuck? The place was so empty and there is a lot of room to move but why purposely clash onto me? After that unprecendented move, I turn to look at him, the old guy just turned and kept staring at me as if wanting to pick a fight. I scolded "EH CIBAI LA!" and walk off backwards while I kept my glare at him. He scolded something I do not understand and walked off.

Seriously, if he were to provoke the situation further, I would of given him a piece of my mind, just the like the young guy above.

Sorry, may be this is just the way I was brought up -- to never take crap from anyone and I mean anyone.

Famous Last Words:

What if a whole group of elderly soldiers were to roll down our country to invade us? Don't shoot at them because we have to respect our elders?

Yeah, right. Fire away, gentlemen.

End.

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2007-02-13T11:18:00.000+08:00

Chapter 74: Dreams!

Buried deep inside yourself is a city of imaginations, hopes and fears, exploding with life everytime you close your beautiful eyes. You breathe in as deep as you can, your mind relaxes, your breathing intensifies and your soul lost into the unknown abyss called the Dream. You fall from the space of reality into another dimension, a dimension where logic and gravity cease to exist. Come, immerse yourself deep...

What is a dream?

A dream is the human experience of envisioned images, sounds or other sensations during the sleep. Usually the events that occur during the dream is impossible or unlikely to happen in reality. There is usually two type of dreaming, firstly, the normal dreaming, i.e you have no control of the dream event and, secondly, there is the lucid dreaming, i.e you have partial or complete control of the dream event.

The scientific study of human's dreams is called Oneirology.

Why do we dream?

The expectation of fulfilment theory of dreams

A well renoun Pyschologist and one of the founder of human givens pyschology, Joe Griffins, have proposed a theory into understanding one's dream. The theory states that, simply, any emotional arousal (be it good or bad) during the day, when it is not quell by an event happening in reality, will be transform into dreams during sleep. Basically, the "leftover" emotions will turn into sensory metaphors in our dreams.

Recalling dreams.

As most of us would have notice, it is usually very hard for one to wake up and remember the dream that he or she had last night. It does take some time for us to recall and figure out what the dream is about. Well, many researchers such as Henry Reed and Stephen LaBarge suggests:

Place a dream journal by your bed

Once you wake up from that dream, limit your thinking to only what happened during your dream
Lie awake, perfectly still and concentrate

Once you recall, write it down

And analyse its meaning, you may find a pattern

My Beautiful Dream:

The moon brightly lit the velvet sky as grey clouds dances sluggishly in the stratoshpere, a busy city below us. I reckon it is the best day of my life as I sit there, proudly, with this mysterious but beautiful female stranger. Her short and silky hair gently caressing her cheeks as the wind blows ever so quietly. I do not know who this gorgeous lady is but there she is sitting right next to me, slightly leaning on me for support.

The warmth of her body radiates through the cold night and I can feel it in my shoulder. I smile and turn to find out who this lovely stranger might be but I can't see her face. Shy she may be because all my efforts to make her look at me fails. Her face and vision away from me but her subtle body ever so close.

I am beginning to feel sad. "Why won't she look at me?" I wonder deeply. It is then that her soft hand reaches out for mine and holds it tightly as if to never let go. And as she is about to turn her head...

I WOKE UP.

Analysis from thecuriousdreamer.com :

Unknown girl: An unknown girl in a dream can represent general young female characteristics such as innocence, beauty, gentleness, purity, creativity, intuition, shyness, or playfulness. A girl can also represent your inner child, your playfulness and need for fun, or your vulnerability and need for support and empathy.

Touch: Touching in a dream depends on what kind of touching, and in what context. A caress can represent caring, affection, compassion, or reassurance. A touch or tap can represent an alert, reminder, or attempt to get the attention of someone.

zid: Okay, that about sums up every reason I believe is behind that dream.

My Depressing Dream A.K.A Nightmare:

A young zid hikes up a few flights of staircase to reach the apartment unit. The sun is blazing down on him and the weather being mercilessily warm at that hour. The young boy in his drenched primary school outfit hurries up the stairs. The moist and sweaty zid runs up the corridor, dripping his salty sweat everywhere. Upon reaching the gate of his apartment, a sudden chill overcomes him as he hears a monotonous shriek coming from the apartment.

He tumbles into the apartment with his white canvas shoes still on and witness a horrible sight in the living room -- his mother, eeriely looking like a Pontianak crouching at the top corner of the living room. Instinctively, he high tail out of the apartment in fear but as soon as he is about to run towards the staircase, the lady appeared right in front of him.

The hideous looking lady breathes heavily as blood oozes out of the hole in her neck, she orders the boy to "return home and behave" in Malay. The boy, not knowing what to do, cautiously inch by inch, enters the apartment. To his surprise, once he enters the living room, his mother appears welcoming him home but not looking like the vampire that he witness before. Confused and dazed...

I WOKE UP.

Analysis from thecuriousdreamer.com :

Mother: Can represent your real-life mother, an authority or caretaker figure (such as your employer), or can represent your spiritual parent - meaning God.

Vampire: To dream that a vampire is after you or trying to suck your blood means that you feel someone's trying to take advantage of you, trying to sap your energy, time, attention, personal space or integrity. Someone is trying to take from you without giving back.

House: A house or place of residence often represents you or your life, even if the residence in the dream does not look like where you live. The dream events in the residence represent events in your life. Can also represent security and/or comfort.

Age: Your age in a dream, if different than your current age, may represent a specific time frame your thinking about or imagining in the dream.

zid: Here, I don't really know what to make out of it. Could be the fear of losing my mother during that age of innocence. Could be the fear of the loss of maternal comfort. Damn, that was really a creepy dream and I can remember it vividly. It sill gives the chill down my spine every time I think of it. Ouh yeah, a note to add, in that dream, I dreamt I had no father. Freaky shit, man.

Dreams are cool, though.

End.

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2007-02-11T17:12:00.000+08:00

Chapter 73: Violence In Action.

You're walking down a street, alone, fiddling with your handphone, sending a sms to your darling sweetheart when suddenly you got a hard knock to the back of your head. You fall down to the floor, the pain at the back of your head is so agonizing. The smell of the cold and dirty ground brings you back to reality. You turn around and scan the vicinity for the source of the impact.

"THUD!"

Another right hook to your face struck you as you fall back helplessly onto the ground. Groaning in pain, you rub your forehead, trying to soothe the pain, your vision starts to clear and you see a man slowly approaching you. As his fuzzy figure starts to come nearer, your brain immediately tells you that his the antagonist, the bad guy, the source of the impact.

What do you do?

Option A:

You try to reason with him, telling him that he can have whatever he wants just as long as he does not inflict any further damage onto you.

Option B:

Pick yourself up and head for the hills, don't look back or take anything! You are more important.

Option C:

Stand up and try to fight him off, just to make sure you can run away safely.

Option D:

Stand up and fight him off, make sure he is no longer a threat to you or to anyone else.

My choice: Option D.

End.

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2007-02-03T12:57:00.000+08:00

Chapter 72: Video Killed The Radio Star.

I heard you on the wireless back in Fifty Two, lying awake intent at tuning it on you. If I was young it didn't stop you coming through.

Section A: Our Video Killed The Other Videos.

Jeanine (our Visual Effects lecturer) : "And the winner...you guess? Messiah of The Republic.."

All the hard effort, long hours in the editing lab, emotional and physical journey we went through was worth it! Hah! Yesterday, we had our film screening in front of the whole cohort and some guests at MLT12. Firstly, let me tell you about our ambitious plan -- the assignment was to do either a 2-5min short film, music video or a short trailer/advertisement. These must be accompanied with elements of Visual effects (3D and such).

Our ambitious plan -- producing 2 films with the same storyline but depicting it from 2 different perspective, one lone avenger and another civilian going for revenge. It was one the most biggest production in terms of filming and editing that we have ever done. Imagine that, 2 films, each with duration of about 20mins complimented by lots of 3D elements. It was very tiring and emotionally stressful. I can see the toll it had taken on our crew but luckily we soared through.

Prophet of The Republic.

Starring: Teo Jun Jie (J.J)

Directed by: Stan Goh Pei Hua

Produced & Written by: Muhd Yazid

Messiah of The Republic.

Starring: Nelson Chen

Directed by: AL-Hafeez

Produced & Written by: Muhd Yazid

All together, we brought home 4 out of 9 Awards.

Best Cinematography
Best Direction
Best Visual Effects
Best Screenplay

Woohooo! Thank you to those who made this possible!!

What did you tell them? Video killed the radio star. Video killed the radio star.

Section B: 6th February 2007, 1315hrs @ Army Recruitment Centre.

A few days ago, I recieved a call from the Army informing of an interview for the Joint Polytechnic-SAF Diploma Scheme. Woohooo! You don't know how elated I was. As soon as I reached home, I "vomitted". The excitement is too much and I can't control my brain. Hah!

So here I am, being shortlisted and waiting for the interview. I'm nervous but really excited. This is what I want and to you people who I think I carry the Army Fieldpack for fun, "IN YOUR FACE, BITCH!". By the way, wish me luck, people.

You were the first one. Oh-a oh...You were the last one.

Section C: Arigato, Mr Teo.

Let's bring our hands together for J.J's dad for that astonishing superb car.

Pictures came and broke your heart, put the blame on VCR. In my mind and in my car, we can't rewind we've gone too far.

You are my Radio Star.

End.

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2007-01-27T23:19:00.000+08:00

Chapter 71: Face Down FEAT DomoKunji

Hey, girl, you know you drive me crazy one look puts the rhythm in my hand. Still I'll never understand why you hang around I see what's going down. Cover up with makeup in the mirror tell yourself, it's never gonna happen again you cry alone and then he swears he loves you.

Do you feel like a man when you push her around? Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground? Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found. A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect every action in this world will bear a consequence. If you wade around forever, you will surely drown, I see what's going down. I see the way you go and say you're right again, say you're right again heed my lecture...

Face down in the dirt, she said, "This doesn't hurt", she said,"I finally had enough."

One day she will tell you that she has had enough it's coming round again. Do you feel like a man when you push her around? Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground? Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found. Face down in the dirt, she said, "This doesn't hurt", she said..

"I finally had enough."

End.

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2007-01-24T23:31:00.000+08:00

Chapter 70: Listen To DomoKunji.

Please listen to what this brown fellow have to say...

DomoKunji: "DON'T FUCK WITH ME PUNK!!!!"

End.

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2007-01-21T11:59:00.000+08:00

Chapter 69: We're Not Taking Sexy Back (Yeah!).

A few days ago, we had the last production filming for both of our upcoming feature film called Prophets of The Republic & Messiah of The Republic respectively. It was situated at Bugis Street, at the red building at the junction going into the bugis street market.

Behold, the truly magnificent red building that we had our filming at. Well, specifically, it was at the roof of this building. Okay, before I go on about how we went about doing the filming, I MUST, share with you the story of how we got the clearance to film there initially.

Section A: Sam, the Beautiful.

For your information, this building was not the one that we wanted to shoot at to begin with. It was the bugis street market, you know the ones selling lots of shirts and stuffs and is very crowded, yup! that building. So I contacted the Bugis Street Management to get permission to film on their property.

I was contacted by Miss Sam Xi Min, Marketing and Communication Manager for Bugis Street, I will never forget that name. HAHA! She informed me that she wanted to meet all the relevant people who are involved in the Production on that day. So J.J, Stan, Poh Li and myself decided to go to Bugis earlier just to meet her.

We reached at the building at 12pm and we waited for her for at least 10 minutes. And when she arrived...WOW. I almost died just looking at her. HAH! So anyways, she invited us to the restaurant at the building for a brief meeting about the property clearance.

We entered the restaurant and settled on one of the dining tables and we sat down for a little chat. Now, here's the interesting part of it - she's GOD DAMN FUCKING BEAUTIFUL! HAHA! Sorry, I just have to get it off my chest. Furthermore, I was sitting at the opposite facing her, my god, my mind went haywire. She told us about the do's and don't and all that kind of stuffs.

And yeah, I almost combust spontaneously just looking into her eyes. I got stuck in my tongue a couple of times when talking to her. Honestly, I had a little crush on her on that day. Hahaa! Moving along...

She looked so good in red.

Section B: How Misery Loved Us.

Moving along on what happened that day, let me share with you what happened during our wait for nightfall. It's so whacky! I almost died twice in that day, from both Sam's eyes and Nelson's hilarious facade!

We told Nelson to put on the mask that was to be Hafeez's made up fictional character:

It was fucking funny because the mask only fitted him perfectly! Just stare at his face for 10 seconds and tell me you can't stop but laugh at it.

J.J's turn. Hah! Freaky shit.

Rehearsing what was going to be filmed on that day:

Chokeslam using movie magic!

Section C: Darkness Falls!

Hmm, a note for you readers out there, I think the guys in our production crew would probably have lots of ideal places to bring any girl for a romantic outing at night. Throughout our 2 years together, doing filming all over Singapore, we have found some superb locations. HAH! But I'm not revealing the secrets! Neither will the crew. =D

Filming Commences!

Fatah as Chancellor Eisenfaust.

Having our dinner at the restaurant. Feeling tired and sleepy.

Two word : SLUTTY MEN. Hahaa!

The crew for the night. Seriously, we're all tired.

Running on adrenaline and hormones.

Packing up, it's a wrap for the night.

THANK YOU BUGIS STREET MANAGEMENT, thank you Sam! haha!

End.

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2007-01-10T19:37:00.000+08:00

Chapter 68: Sentosa, Blue Sky and Broken Hearts.

Yesterday Nelson, Poh Li, Hafeez and myself went to Sentosa and did some filming at the Old Monorail Building there. Seriously, I didn't expect much to happen during our trip there but I was wrong, dead wrong.

So early in the morning and we arrived at the gate of Sentosa. The journey begins.

The leaves are scattered on the ground, I miss the seasons and the comfort of your smile.

Section A: Tram Ride.

We reached Sentosa around 1100am, yes, that early (I know, who the fuck goes to Sentosa that early). However, we planned to meet up the main actor of our production, Nelson Chen (Nel) A.K.A James Lye later at 3pm. So you could imagine the amount of free time we had.

Well, we went around Sentosa on the slow tram, slowly driving through the small Island. It's so windy and cold.

I don't think I ever told you but I know you did your best and the hard times, they only made us stronger.

Section B: The Long Wait.

Up until about 2pm, when we had had our lunch at the "Bangalawan" (Palawan) beach as pronounced by Poh Li, we slacked around Sentosa aimlessly. Walking here and there, testing out Ice Cream transportation vehicles, wondering how butterflies' wings feel like and waiting for the bus.

There's not much to do, really.

The hardest part isn't finding what we need to be, it's being content with who we are.

Section C: 3pm, Filming Time.

After 2 hours of doing basically nothing in Sentosa, finally we met up with Nel and his friend who tagged along. We catched a bus towards our shooting location which is the Old Monorail Building which used to be a main attraction back in the old days.

As soon as we reached our destination, everyone knows what to do.

Poh Li won't put his damn bag down. We had to gently persuade him using our hands.

Getting ready for the filming, guns blaring, camera rolling, waiting for the Director's call.

3, 2, 1...and ACTION!

Emotional Scene.

Yeah! We're done, bitches.

It's a wrap!

I do think Sentosa is a good location for filming shorts but I dislike the place, really.

Section D: I Saw Someone I Hate.

I could swear a thousand and one times when I think about it but what's the use? It'll only waste blogger's bandwith and my time. So I leave you with the following...

"I fight to make you stronger, to make you love your life. I fight to show you purpose, to keep you satisfied. I fight to make you happy. I war to win your heart. I'd fight forever for you. I ache when we're apart."

"I fight to stay together, to bring us eye to eye. I fight to speak your language, to keep you by my side. I fight to make it easy. I push to give you time. I fight our losing battle. I bleed to stay alive."

"I'm fighting for us, my heart is a soldier. I'm killing myself, my heart is a soldier marching to die."

Section E: Staying away from Sentosa.

I will make a point to reiterate this over and over again if anyone happens to invite me to go to Sentosa.

I'm boycotting Sentosa for at least the next 2 or 3 years. Don't ask me why.

End.

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2007-01-03T13:58:00.000+08:00

Chapter 67: The Streets Were Wet & The Gate Was Locked.

Section A: Joint Polytechnic-SAF Diploma Scheme.

Guess what? I have successfully applied for the scheme. Yeah, I have made up my mind finally. It's either now or never. So anyways, I have to wait for them to call me or e-mail me in the coming days to see whether I'm shortlisted for the scheme. If yes I am shortlisted, I have to go through all the neccessary check-ups and examination to enlist for NS.

Hopefully I will be shortlisted! For now, I'll wait patiently.

Section B: What's with the infatuation for Bad Boys, girls?

Wait, before I say anything, I just want to say that I'm glad that some of my male friends have brought up the same concerns in their blog as well (for example, Stan's blog).

Now, let me rant! What's with this liking for Bad Boys who smokes, have tattooes all over, drinks heavily and looks, basically, like shit. Hey, I'm not saying I'm a PERFECT good boy, I did some bad stuffs too. It's just that I find it weird that majority of girls are attracted to these kind of guys who will, eventually, use them just for their own benefit.

Please, if all the ladies of the world could stand up and tell me why this phenomena is happening? I know some of you out there would definitely disagree but there are some that will agree (I can bet your ass!). Is it the thrill? Is it that lingering tobacco scent that attracts you? That fierce look they present? I don't understand, really, enlighten me if you will.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder? Bullshit if you find such Bad Boys "beautiful". Okay, let me disect them - maybe they are sincere, honest and knows how to treat the lady BUT they smoke, drink, swears a lot, look like those teenage dirtbags at Peninsula, ugly kinds and only is an angel when they are in front of you.

I dare anyone to enlighten me.

If being bad and commiting stupid stuffs makes you more attractive, then I would like you to imagine me flipping you off with a big grin on my face.

Section C: Kids growing up too fast these days...

Just the other day, I was on my way back from Friday Prayers and I went to Long John Silver at Tampines Mall to have my lunch. I noticed that there are a significant number of Primary school kids dressing up (make up for girls, cultured clothing for boys), going out in co-ed mix of groups and showing off their latest handphones.

I'm not being conservative but I'm just surprised that the rate of growth have increase rapidly. Mind you that the kids I saw were most likely Primary School kids having their holidays. I saw some of the girls putting on heavy make-ups. Girl-girl, you look like those chinese wayang dancers. Boys, growing up wanting to be those Mats, Ah Bengs, Sarajambos with their behaviour and all.

All that I want to say here is that enjoy your childhood while you still can. Enjoy it, correctly. Damn, while I was their age, Tampines Mall is considered a grown up place to be in and I will confess that I rarely ventured to Tampines Mall when I was that young. Make up and dressing? Those were the last thing on my mind then! Hey, imitation T-shirts and any shorts would do. Handphones, PDAs and MP3s? Gosh, all I had was a $20++ digimon back then.

Well, no one could really stop the process. What's next? Babies flirting with nurses?

My God.

Happy 2007.

End.

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2006-12-24T23:04:00.000+08:00

Chapter 66: That Funny Feeling, Merry Xmas!

Happy Birthday! Oh! You all planned it all long!

I just reached home from an outing with a few of my close friends to celebrate my belated birthday. Well, they treated me food and stuffs. I thank you very much for the company and effort you guys have put.

Udi and aIN, thank you for "The Best Book of Useless Information Ever" and the dinner treat. hFz, thank you for the "U.S Playboy magazine", Adin, thank you for presence, J.J and Adeline, thank you for the ice cream treat. I had a wonderful time just now, make sure you pass me your birthdays, so I can do the same for you next time.

Ouh yeah, I found out I have a sixth sense to tell what is inside a present package. I guessed correctly on both occasion. Both books! Wahahaa! Weird eh, yeah, I know.

Also, I begin to realise how little close friends I really have. Hah! Yeah, sad. But hey, I don't get so emotional over it because I know at least I have a few very close friends. Though I'm open to the idea of people wanting to know me. =)

JSPDS

I have been thinking about this alot lately, whether to pursue it or just let it fly after my National Service is done.

Joint Singapore Armed Forces-Polytechnic Diploma Scheme

Helps me in my current financial situation
Confirms my future's direction

It has been my plan all along to at least serve in the army for some years before going out and doing production works again. However, I don't know if it's possible to apply when I'm in Year 2 of my education. I'm still inquiring on the issue.

And I'm still thinking about it. Tell me your thoughts and opinions ya!

Merry Xmas to all you people out there!

Taking Back Sunday's personal tune to the 12 days of Christmas. Enjoy~

End.

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2006-12-20T19:34:00.000+08:00

Chapter 65: 20th December 1988

On this date, The United Nations Convention Against Illicit Traffic in Narcotic Drugs & Pyschotropic Substances is signed at Vienna. It is also the date that I was born. I do believe today is the best day for people to get to know about me better, hence the autobiography below:

About me
Name: Muhd Yazid
Location: "Tam-penis", Singapore
Age: 18
Height: 1.7
Weight: Not sure.
Race: Malay
Religion: Islam
Vision Power: 255
Any Illness(es): "Refractive Disorder", "Brutally Honest"

Academic life
Primary Education: Griffiths Primary School
Secondary Education: Greenview Secondary School
Currently: Singapore Polytechnic, Diploma in Multimedia Technology
How was PSLE?: Passed but I fucking failed my Maths, I got D.
How was O's?: Passed with flying colors! 3 Distinctions! And I passed Maths!!
Most Beloved Education Level: SECONDARY 2!!! (2e5 rocks la babe)
Most Precious Academic Moment:

Primary School: I gave someone a right hook to the face for stealing my file.
Secondary School: Lots! Immature life in sec 2, NCC, teenage agnst period during sec3 & 4!Hah!

Social life
How sociable am I?: Shy in the beginning, once you get to know me, you're dead. =D
Social Circle: Not that big as far as I can tell.
Do you love Social Studies?: Hell yeah, I got distinctions for it! What?! Sri Lanka? Switzerland?
How do I approach people?: That's the problem, I don't really approach people.
How do people find you as?: Fierce(Why cannot?!), studious(WTF?), Too honest(Hell yeah!) etc.

Love life
Are you in love now?: No.
Have you fall in love before?: Yes.
Have you fall out of love before?: Yes.
Do you believe in a thing called love?: Yeahh...touching you-oooooo, touching me-eehhhh, touching you-ooooo...heyyyy! you're touching meee-eeeehhh! (Sung by The Darkness)
Dream Girl: I can't really pinpoint but I do have a soft heart for cute girls with a broken smile. (What? You want me to say I don't go for looks? Hell no, I have a disease called "Brutally Honest" - refer to section: "About me")

Future
Career: Film/Video Director, Screenplay Writer...if all else fail, I wanna be a Soldier.
Going to University?: Hopefully.
Migrating?: Nope, travel around, yes! (Unless of course if my career is overseas, maybe)
Age to get married: 25 to 27, latest by 28!
Kids?: 11 of 'em! I'm not afraid to have more than 3, just so you know.
Car(s)?: Maybe my first car will be those like Honda Jazz but my dream car will always be a FIAT PUNTO!

Misc
Fave Food: Not really picky, NO BABI(pork) please!!
Fave Drink: Not really picky, NO ALCOHOL please!!
Fave Music: Punk+Emo+Alt rock! (No TECHNO please!!, i heard God hates techno =D )
Fave Movie Genre: Anything really! Even R(A) ones! Wahahahahaha!
Fave Male Celebrity: Tom Hanks! "Run Forrest! fucking run Forrest!"
Fave Female Celebrity: LINDA LIAO & LEAH DIZON!

Hah! Linda Liao making weird faces!

Leah Dizon, I just smile every time I see her pictures.

Most Freaky Experience

It was in Primary school when it happened. I was in Primary 3 then and I was on my way home and I have to pass this school toilet in order to reach the main gate of the school. I was alone then and since it was around 6pm+, the school was almost deserted. As I walk down this narrow corridor and passed the girls' toilet, I noticed something from the back of my eye -- a figure of girl with long hair poking her head out of the half-ajar toilet door. The freaky thing is that she looked hideous and kept staring at me! I ignored her and walked as fast as I can. This set my interest in the supernatural for your information!

Most Awkward Experience

This, too, happened while I was in Primary 4. I had a quiet crush on this girl who sits in front of me during mother tongue lessons. I used to ignore whatever the teacher teaches and kept staring at that silky smooth hair of hers. Until one day I think I had a cut on my index finger from cutting some stuffs, so the guy sitting next to me called out to the teacher. Guess who was the first to respond? The girl I had a crushed on! She turned around, stood up and offered me a couple of tissue papers! And what did I do? I just stared at those tissue papers on her delicate fingers! I can't believe she actually offered tissue to me!!

I was in awe and I was too shy to accept the tissue papers but I want to, and so the debate in my head froze me for a few seconds. In the end, I didn't take the tissue but the teacher did and helped me clean up the blood on my finger. Yeah, looking back, it was just a fucking tissue, man! But I can still remember the girl's name! =D

Okay, that's enough. It's not often I opened up so much. Guess I'm like the shopping industry in Singapore, I have great sales on a yearly basis.

THANK YOU to everyone who sent me their wishes!

Happy 18th, zid.

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2006-12-03T11:40:00.000+08:00

Chapter 64: This Is My December.

"This is my December
This is my time of the year
This is my December
This is all so clear
This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
This is me alone."

Note : Blogger is on hiatus until 2oth December. Thank you.

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2006-11-07T22:27:00.000+08:00

Chapter 63: Stay For The Kids.

Damn, how long have I left my blog stagnant? Doesn't matter because at least now I'm actually blogging again. Not a good time to blog actually but who cares right?! Anyways, I'm very sorry to a lot of my friends for being very busy this few days. Well, to them it's like I'm busy almost every time and I seek forgiveness. Wait, that's the second time I asked for it. Nevermind, wahaha.

Section A: Shooting at Marina Bay

Anyways, today I had some shooting at Marina Bay. It's really freaking hot, man. Worst! I was wearing SMIT's black Polo-T shirt. I swear I was sweating like some mad dog and all the sweat was on the Panasonic HD P2 camera. Good thing my crew didn't notice it! Wahahaa!

But best of all, today, I went Fast & Furious : Marina Bay Drift.

Eyes on the road! Vroom!!

Damn, the cops are behind us! Shit!!!

I know, it's cool but boys and girls, it's illegal. Live dangerously but not that dangerously okay? Don't let me smack your head. Ouh yeah, Sean, thanks for the car (I promise you one night stand of fun). =D

Section B: 80 Pages of script

The main reason why these past few days I'm really busy is because I'm joining Panasonic's National Scriptwriting Competition. It's my first time in the competition and I want to give it my best. Jen told us that the management is asking around as to who's joining. Hey, I'm not going to stand there and wait.

So I'm only half way done which is 40 pages only. I have another 40+ pages to go. Hope all the hardwork pays off and wish me luck.

Section C: SP's Prison Break

Hafeez, Stan and myself had this crazy idea when we're having our dinner at BK just now after shooting. Why not, one day, we go to school dressed like the dudes from Prison Break?! Wahahahaa. Surprisingly, we were so excited about the idea! Cool huh?!

Hafeez will be Sucre, the latin dude, I will be T-Bag, the peadophile and Stan be will the hip hop kid, Tweener. Wahahaa! I guess it's from all the stress.

Don't be surprise if you see us really doing it though. =P

Section D: What Comes Around, Goes Around.

This is for Stan Goh Pei Hua.

I told you Karma will bite you back in the arse someday.

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2006-10-27T21:31:00.000+08:00

Chapter 62 : Three Dimensional "Ah-Mad"-ness.

Some screen renders I did for my Computer Animation assignment. I just love to the lighting and set design.

Splinter Boy and MARPAT Bot.

Glacier Madness!

Bug on ice.

I love Computer Animation but I sincerely hate Ahmad, the fucking lecturer.

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2006-10-26T22:34:00.000+08:00

Chapter 61 : What?!

I did this before I did my assignment. I hate my assignment, I love this.

Nice room huh.

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2006-10-19T21:59:00.000+08:00

Chapter 60 : Big Penises and Breasts.

Ever thought of what the future will be? Well, I came upon this weird yet insightful article about what the future might hold for us human being. Yes, you can infer from my post's title that the future will indeed be dark for us. Here's an extract:

"From SPI's Blog 19 Oct 2006

---snip---

Humanity may split into an elite and an underclass, says Dr Curry. Humanity may split into two sub-species in 100,000 years' time as predicted by HG Wells, an expert has said. Evolutionary theorist Oliver Curry of the London School of Economics expects a genetic upper class and a dim-witted underclass to emerge. The human race would peak in the year 3000, he said - before a decline due to dependence on technology.

People would become choosier about their sexual partners, causing humanity to divide into sub-species, he added. The descendants of the genetic upper class would be tall, slim, healthy, attractive, intelligent, and creative and a far cry from the "underclass" humans who would have evolved into dim-witted, ugly, squat goblin-like creatures.

But in the nearer future, humans will evolve in 1,000 years into giants between 6ft and 7ft tall, he predicts, while life-spans will have extended to 120 years, Dr Curry claims. Physical appearance, driven by indicators of health, youth and fertility, will improve, he says, while men will exhibit symmetrical facial features, look athletic, and have squarer jaws, deeper voices and bigger penises.

Women, on the other hand, will develop lighter, smooth, hairless skin, large clear eyes, pert breasts, glossy hair, and even features, he adds. Racial differences will be ironed out by interbreeding, producing a uniform race of coffee-coloured people. However, Dr Curry warns, in 10,000 years time humans may have paid a genetic price for relying on technology. Receding chins Social skills, such as communicating and interacting with others, could be lost, along with emotions such as love, sympathy, trust and respect. People would become less able to care for others, or perform in teams.

All Rights Reserved to SPI

---End Of Extract---"

Emphasis on the words in bold, my dear readers. Are we the beginning of this race? Choosy about sexual partners? Honestly, HELL YEAH. You have got to be kidding me if you said "no" because if you weren't choosy, you'd be marrying anyone, and i mean ANYONE. On a brighter note, everyone in the elite class in the future will all look HOT. Great. Nothing against that.

While all the girls will look like her...

Linda. =D

All the guys will be like that handsome guy there...

Yes, that guy in that circle there.

LAUGH OUT LOUD.

Wait, let me put on my helmet first before the critique bombardment begins in my tagboard. Okies! Go!

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2006-10-11T18:00:00.000+08:00

Chapter 59 : Fighting My Day.

I open my eyes and realise yesterdays' gone.

The memories of yesteryears are bygones.

Everyday I wake up with a chill in my bones.

Not knowing my rocks from my stones;

Though still I continue fighting my day.

Turn on the silver tap, hearing water flow.

Don't always tell me you reap what you sow.

What if you are caught by that mysterious tow?

Will I ever see you again tomorrow?

My answer is yes, keep on fighting my day.

The morning breeze brushes my face,

To school I go but still full of daze.

Have you ever felt like living in a maze?

Where deadends and more choices you will taste.

Right turn, left turn, let's go fighting my day.

As I stare down at the train rail tracks,

I can't help but to wonder if they were to crack.

Like a precious China silver set on a potato sack.

Why the fuck you climb that beanstalk Jack?

Guess the moral is to continue fighting my day.

Sometimes I miss the solace of that warm hug.

No, it's never the same like those furry rugs.

If I ever see you again, please, don't give a fuck.

Because if you do, my antique heartstrings you'll tug.

For only you I'll seize fighting my day.

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2006-10-04T20:59:00.000+08:00

Chapter 58 : Round, Round, Here Around, Rockin' Around!

I did this.

My dream car--a Fiat Punto (pronounced as Pun-'DHO) with body kit and personalized spray paint. Ain't that a beauty? Cranky. I don't care, as soon as I'm able to get myself a car, this will be my car. Trust me, sooner or later you'll see zid on the Riot Mobile horning and wheezing by your neighbourhood like nobody's business.

Ah-hakkk!

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2006-09-25T18:23:00.000+08:00

Chapter 57 : Suspicious Emotions.

Don't want Cactus la!

It was the first day of the new semester today. Frankly, it was very boring. Typical of the first day of every new semester. My 2B23 class gets better by the remixing of people from last semester 24. Better now! All my close friends are back together in one class except for Nelson. Feel so sorry for him. Wahahaa. Anyways, did something for Computer Animation (CANI) practical lesson today.

My supposed cactus turned out to be a very haunting and eerie vegetation of some sort. I just love the reddish and semi blue lighting that I have added. Makes it all looked Goth. When I showed it to our lecturer, his face was like WTF because we were supposed to create a cactus and not some monstrous plant. Wahahaa. Who cares.

What Model?!

Ouh yeah, on my way home just now, something weird happened. As most of you would know, Tampines MRT station is very crowded especially during peak hours. I went through my typical route and I saw these group of smart people holding some files, eyes scanning the crowd. I was listening to my mp3 so I didn't really give a fuck what the hell they want.

However, one of the guys from that company of people suddenly approached me and told me the most unexpected thing ever. He said "Sorry, we're looking for fresh faces for our Man's Modelling Agency and I would like to ask you if you have minute to spare?"

I'm like What the Fuck to highest definition of FUCKED UP BEYOND ALL REASON?!

He then started to ask me questions, my profile basically and then to sum it up he asked if I was free the next day for interview.

My reply:

"Sorry dude, I'm not interested."

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2006-09-22T22:22:00.000+08:00

Chapter 56 : Shy Independent Productions

Let me introduce to you my crew from the Shy Independent Productions. We specialise in digital videos, moving images and movies of all sorts. Currently producing our next movie entitled "Project Indigo" that will come out somewhere mid of October.

From left to right:

Stan (Wu, Pei Hua)

Best Editor, Enthusiastic and committed.

Zid (Zid)

Best Production Manager & Picture

Kathleen (Kath)

Best in Versatiliy, our Spokesperson

Jun Jie (J.J, "DOP")

Best Cinematography & Photography, Camera Pimp

AL-Hafeez (hFz)

Best Sound Designer, Ideas guy

And yeah, we're looking out for people who have the same goals and interest as us. We are still recruiting people into our group FYI.

I love my crew. =D

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2006-09-21T21:45:00.000+08:00

Chapter 55 : Anti-Holiday.

I was supposed to have one month holiday beginning 3 weeks ago. I didn't have any. No, I'm not pissed off or sad. I just felt that shit happens and I have to prioritise correctly. I have Project Indigo Productions, NDP '07 Planning to do and of course, planning for VEFX next semester. Thank God, we managed to find time to enjoy ourselves during these activities.

Project Indigo : Behind the scenes.

Bryan, driver. Zid, whacko producer.

First day of shooting. It's kinda hectic with the loaning out of equipments from school, coordinating transport, logistics and the rountine order for the day.

Supporting roles the Director and Producer plays. Feeling rather gay that things seemed kinda slow on that day.

Project Indigo Crew. (We're missing out on Kathleen and Poh Li)

A special tribute to our rented and departed Honda Jazz SFU9091X.

"I've found a reason to show...A side of me you didn't know...A reason for all that I do...And the reason is you".

I'll miss that special car. So long and good night, SFU9091X. By the way, what a coincidence, during our chalet, we spotted the car at Changi. Someone probably rented it and lives at Changi. Whoever it is, take care of it.

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2006-09-13T20:35:00.000+08:00

Chapter 54 : Results Galore!

My exams results, for all to see. =D

Wahahaa. Mediocre results except for my Video Production which I want to excel so much and I did. I am so proud of myself for getting through that shitty semester. Generally, I can't say I'm expecting a good results because I did slack for that semester!

Relieved! Looking forward for next semester!

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2006-09-03T21:39:00.000+08:00

Chapter 53 : RSAF Open house

I just got back from the Republic Of Singapore Air Force (RSAF) Open house at Paya Lebar Airbase just now. It didn't turned out to be that exciting. However, I must say the aerial displays from the various aircrafts are cool. Fascinating indeed. It was an all boys day out just now. B-Boys & Company, Udi and myself.

The indoor exhibition of the aircrafts that are available on that day. The information is okay but it wasn't really interactive which kind of sucks.

F16, one of the many defenders of our skies. World Class People seh. =D

AH-64 Apache. Newly acquired by the RSAF. Cool huh. Actually they let you have a taste of what it's like to be in cockpit but the long queue deterred me.

Different kinds of missiles and warheads displayed. B1 showing a very contradicting gesture.

Surface to air missile. B1 trying it out.

Give this guy a rifle, he is just the same as the kid next to him.

The rifle is my friend.

Commence of the airshow!

Suddenly, after the Apache flew by, explosions could be heard! I was kind of shock that they was an explosion done. Never saw one in such an exhibition before.

Boom! You can see the smoke rising upwards.

Super Pumas providing transport to the soliders while an Apache protects them from afar.

A very rare display of Paratroopers parachuting in by plane. Awesome!

"When they come, I'll hold my ground."

And yes, the Red Lions were there too. I was hoping for them to be in full Military gear when dropped in. That would be way fascinating then those artsy-fartsy 80's looking jumpsuit, seriously, just for that exhibtion.

Awesome day, but as for the exhibition, I was expecting more. Cheat my feelings seh. =(

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2006-08-29T17:19:00.000+08:00

Chapter 52 : Valentine's Patriot

This is my blog premier of Valentine's Patriot, a short digital video of 15mins 32 sec. I know many of you have been anticipating its debut on my blog. So let's not waste time and watch it now! Please do go to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ucMv5IuA3ow and send your comments. I'll appreciate it, greatly! =D

Synopsis:

A simple story of an Assassin in dilemma, Valentine, as he falls head over heels over a girl, Ophelia. His infatutation for her compromised his will to carry out his missions successfully. "Country above self" over rules "love conquers all"?

P.S : Forgive me for the not so good compression quality. The MPEG-4 compression apparently makes the quality becomes bad. Youtube said it's the best format for web. Anyways, i have the 2.3Gig high quality one. So if you'd like to view it, do tell me ya. =D

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2006-08-17T22:18:00.000+08:00

Chapter 51 : "Project Indigo" Call Out!

Calling talented dudes and dudettes out there for an acting role in our Shy Independent Productions' latest short film "Project Indigo".

Synopsis:

Project Indigo

A secret scientific project handled by the Military called Project Indigo had just begun. The main goal is to find out whether if not the DNA can really be activated and cause one to be an Indigo Child. The test subjects are random people chosen so as to ensure no biasness in the experiment. The Military believes an Indigo Child would prove valuable as an ultimate defense tool. Eva is one of the many test subjects and human that is manipulated like a lab mice as if her life means nothing. Will she survive the ordeal?

Conditions:

1. Lead (Main)

Female only
Good acting skills
Fluent in english
Free during Mid September
Committed
Easy to work with
Age : 25 and below

2. Extra(s)

Male / Female
Mediocre / Good acting skills
Able to converse in English if not fluent
Free during Mid September
Committed
Easy to work with
Age : 25 and below

Benefits:

Written Official Portfolio
Money rewards, if Production wins competition

Further inquiries, you can e-mail me at: scaryzidscaringkidstheory@hotmail.com

Thank you.

Your sincerely, The Producer of "Project Indigo".

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2006-08-17T18:00:00.000+08:00

Chapter 50 : Why Can't A Rifle Be My Friend?

Arms & Explosive Act:

1. Can I apply for a licence to possess an antique gun in Singapore?

In Singapore, we do not allow anyone to possess an antique gun other than a musket gun. No licence is required for a musket gun if the barrel is sealed and the firing mechanism deactivated.

2. Can I possess a Stun Gun or Pepper spray for self-protection in Singapore?

The stun gun and pepper spray are prohibited in Singapore because they are dangerous items and if fallen on wrong hands, can lead to serious consequences. Hence, no one is allowed to possess them.

3. Do I need a licence to import toy guns into Singapore?

All importation of toy guns need the approval of the Licensing Officer and if approved, an import licence has to be obtained. Toy guns that resemble real guns will not be approved.

4. Am I allowed to possess an airsoft gun, which discharges only plastic pellets?

An airsoft gun resembles a real gun and it discharges pellets at high velocity. Besides being dangerous, it can lead to serious consequences, if fallen on wrong hands. Hence, its possession by an individual is prohibited in Singapore.

5. What is the definition of "arms" in the Act?

Under the Arms & Explosives Act, "arms" is defined as - any firearms, air-guns, air-pistols, automatic guns, automatic pistols, and guns or any other kind of gun from which any shot, bullet or other missile can be discharged or noxious fumes or noxious substance can be emitted and any component part of any such arms, and bayonets, swords, daggers, spears and spearheads.

So basically, I don't know how I'm going to go about doing Project Indigo. Hrmm. Maybe quietly and discreetly. Oh well, that why I'm planning if I were to have my career as a Producers of films and videos, I might as well migrate somewhere. The reason is because, the laws here are to strict for my imagination to roam free.

Yes, I know Mr. Know-It-All, safety first, ya-dah, ya-dah, whatever shit.

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2006-08-15T21:38:00.000+08:00

Chapter 49 : Victory, Is Mine, Babe.

Today. This very fateful day, I woke up at 5.45am. I knew something great will come out of all this. I reached school 7.52am. THAT bitch reached school at 7.55am! I won! I am victorious, the honor and glory is all mine. All mine. The victory sealed my pride, forever. No one can ever take that away from me!

Wahahahaa. Basically, the shit on top is about my victory of coming to school earlier than another girl who uses the same work desk station as mine. Our editing computers, are shared among 3 people. I find that to be really, fucked up. As an higher learning institution, I would suggest that each student is to have their own computers for the rest of the whole 3 years.

Wouldn't that be better? Noooooooo..SP is way too stingy. Shit.

Back to the story, once I reached school! My God!! I was so elated that my desk is empty! So I swooped the empty place and log in as fast as I could. =D 3 minutes later, I saw her strolling into the lab door and from the look on the face, I knew she said "Damn, that handsome fucker got here first!" (Sorry for the exaggeration, if you don't like it, piss off! =D). I cannot tell you how happy I felt when I looked at her pissed off face! Wooohooooo..

I just wanted to grin at her and show her who's boss but...I'm compassionate la. So I just controlled myself. Good boy. =)

Anyways, I have finished my Valentine's Patriot and I will be showing it here if time permits. Nahh, I think i WILL show it here. Just wait ya. I'll bet your nipples will harden, if not, at least your pubic hair stands up.

VICTORY IS MINE, babe.

PAIN IS TEMPORARY, GLORY IS FOREVER.

Bye.

P.S : By the way, Linda Liao is fucking hot la. =)

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2006-08-08T23:13:00.000+08:00

Chapter 48 : Posters! Posters! Read All About It!

Some personalized posters I did for a game called Day Of Defeat. Basically, you can spray posters of anything in the game. Similar to Counter strike but a little different. Please, comment on my posters. Wahaahhaaaa.

Who's that hot mama??

Ten bucks to anyone beside Hafeez, J.J and Stan, if they can identify what is in the picture.

Lucky Number Zid.

Woohooo. Valentine's Patriot gonna be out soon! =D I'll stream it into my blog for everyone to watch. Stay tuned.

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2006-08-02T21:16:00.000+08:00

Chapter 47 : Last Day On Earth?

What if it is the last day on Earth and right before Armageddon, God wants to be humourous and gives you a chance to do anything (with his permission, of course)? What would you do?

Imagine that person to be me. Here's what I'm going to do. =D

Action Number 1 : Compliment the Eve Society.

Yes, my first action that I'll do is to compliment every single girl on this Earth. Whatever your shape, look, race, creed, intelligence, status or religion is, I would personally go to you and compliment you, serenade you and make you feel comfortable just before we all die. No, I'm not being cheesy, I'm just being a guy. Frankly, I believe no one should be left alone in the dark without the comfort of being loved.

Action Number 2 : War Can't Kill Me.

My next action after making all ladies of the world happy, would be to go to any area of conflict in any part of the world and just stand there in the midst of the battle. Get a taste of what it's like to be in the crossfire of our petty disagreements. I have always wanted to stroll in between a gunfight and watch as they try to shoot each other. We as human beings should learn to overcome our fears. I would want to accomplish that if it's my last day on Earth.

Action Number 3 : Forgive Me.

I would apologize for everything I have done to everyone that I have come in contact with. Set up a live feed broadcast and say sorry to everyone in the world. Every single human in this world will watch the live telecast of my apology. I would probably sing Hoobastank's "The Reason" too just to add a more emo and solemn effect. =)

Action Number 4 : End All Sufferings.

Gather all the bands of crooks, thieves and wanted Mafias for a forum. Tell them that I'm planning a large scale robbery of the Swiss Banks and I need their support. The gathering will be accompanied by Elton John singing 50 Cent's Candy Shop and Madonna being the hostess for the night. Things will go smoothly and all the money will be accumulated back to me with their help and I'll distribute the money to the poors worldwide. As for the band of criminals I hired, I'll force them to do community service like changing underwears for the old and needy.

I don't know. If God is a blogger and he reads my blog, he'll probably avoid giving me any chances to do the stuffs I want before we all die. God is probably flipping me off right now.

God works in mysterious ways right? How the fuck should I know.

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2006-07-30T12:35:00.000+08:00

Chapter 46 : Conspiracies In Religions.

If you are easily offended and have a narrow mind of things, please avoid reading further and close this window. Readers' discretion, is advised.

I've wanted to say something about this topic for a very long time. I hope this post doesn't fall under our Seditious Act. Primarily, my main objective in this post is to question and hopefully let you ponder about "religion" and may you seek to question your faith and hence, strengthening it.

Once again, before I start. I just want to say that Conspiracies will remain as it is until proven true by renoun sources.

Section A : Power Of Religion.

Have you ever notice how strong religion plays in our life? Have you ever felt that religion has some kind of power opposite to that of divinity? Do you see religion as an option or mandatory? This are the questions I want you to answer to yourself and not to me and please, don't flame me if you feel offended. Almost all main religions of the world indeed have a strong following from different parts of the world and have a somewhat invisible power on them.

This power of control mainly come from, as they say, God. That mighty being that has complete control over our lives and afterlives but we cannot see it. We can only feel the power controlling us. If you carefully analyse all the major religions, they all have a sort of "control manual" in them. These "control manual" usually contains restrictions, do's and don'ts and the "correct" way of life.

Most people don't see these "control manual" as evil at all. Yes, they showed us the correct way of living and I must say most religions in the world have control manual that teaches you to be kind hearted and good. However, this set of rules would come with a set of punishments and this punishments are usually set in the afterlife. Do good and you go to Heaven. Fail to do so, prepare to be burn for all eternity in hell.

I don't know if any of you might notice this but religion is scaring us to be good. They are forcing us and pressurising us to do goodwill. I'm not saying this is wrong. I just want people to understand this notion that I am bringing forward and be aware of it. Do not follow a religion blindly that it leads you to the path of misery and destruction.

Section B : Why the many religions?

Why the many religions in this world of ours? Different parts of the world has their own definition and supreme being. Is there really that many God(s) around in this universe or are we just confused? Or God purposely creates that many religion just to "test" us? If so I must say, no wonder we have so many conflicts all around that has religion in it.

In the end, it is not "my religion is right and yours is wrong" attitude that matters. The ultimate goal, in my view, is that for you to fully understand it and being faithful to it. Just to add some information, some researchers and scientist have claimed that being faithful and fully practising and understanding your faith would help your brain to further develop and even strengthens your body.

That in itself could be a propaganda, just so you know.

Section C : Religion starts humanity and religion will end it.

The first early homosapiens begins questioning the meaning of life and whether there is a higher being controlling our lives. This resorts in worship of totems (spiritual beings) and this is the founding root of religion in terms of human evolution and religion evolution. Let's not talk about the stereotypical religion history (God created man, God came to our world etc) but in a more general way so that we won't be biased.

This evolves and soon came the religions that are present now-- Judeo-Christianity-Islamic faiths, Hinduism, Buddhism and what have you. Religion becomes a vital part of our lives and the reason is because they help us in our construction of our social structure, help us advance in always searching for the truth and helps us understands the meaning of life.

However, religion also brews the hatred in mankind. The world we live in right now is unstable and at any time there will be destruction because of religion. If you see in history, most of wars happened because of religion and all due to Jihad, Inquisition and Martyrdom. Kill and die for your religion. Now, it will all happen again, just wait and see.

The current situation in Middle East is as fragile as a person hanging on your clothesline. Israel, the land "promised" to the Jews by God, is being attacked by Hezbollah and Hamas-- 2 terror groups seeking to destroy them for Islam and their homeland. From what I read and infer in abovetopsecret, in America, a group of Evangelical Christians in San Antonio, Texas, are lobbying and preparing themselves to defend Israel.

All this due to a prophecy which states that Christians must defend Israel if it is attacked. Now that Israel is attacked by "someone", this group of Evangelical Christians want to prepare the "Christian America" for the defense of Israel. Another conspiracy theory suggest that since religion plays a quiet yet strong role in America, they would come to the aid of Israel (by the way, America is already the ally of Israel all along). This will bring the whole world back to war because of religion. I just hope that won't happen.

To sum up, religion is the root of all that is good and also the root of all that is evil. Religion can bring you to damnation, it could bring you fortune and eternal bliss or it could mean nothing to you. That is for you to decide.

I'll keep questioning.

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2006-07-23T19:17:00.000+08:00

Chapter 45 : A Call For Action And A Reaction.

Section A: What's up? Ceiling and lights.

What's going on with my life right now? Assignments and projects keeping me very, very busy. I apologise to my friends, especially those not from SP, if you find me unreachable nowadays. I'm too pre-occupied with stuffs to do-- video editting, flash authoring and, of course, studying. Honestly, I have never been so busy in my whole life before.

And yeah, I haven't cut my hair in months. I would say this is the longest my hair have ever grown. Anyways, so aIN, you said you would want to see me with my hair kept long (but not too long) right? So here goes :

From all the stress. =)

By the way, my Valentine's Patriot Post Production stage is 50% complete. Tomorrow we're going to record the voice overs for my Production. Hope everything will go smoothly and deliver on time by next 2 weeks.

J.J having fun at my Production work desk.

What Peace?!

Section B : Shoe Design For If.

If asked me to design his white shoe and hopefully paint it. A challenge taken because I wanted to try to paint shoes. I have NEVER(again) design shoes before!

Nice huh? I call it "NOVUS ORDO SECLORUM". That is latin for New Order of Ages. This design will be placed on the front tip of the shoe. Hope he'll like it.

Section C : Taking Lives In Our Own Hand.

Heard of the recent news about the conflict in the Middle East getting worst? It gets much more terrible by the minute! Waves of rockets launched by Hezbollah into Israel and barrages of missiles by Israeli Air Force. World War III is imminent and before you know it, it kicks you right in the face.

I don't know which group to side with if you ask me. The way I see it, both parties are wrong and right at the same time. Hezbollah, a known terror group kills and wants to destroy Israel to get back their homeland. Israel presents a fierce image in the Middle East and to hold her ground that she acquired years ago after World War II. Now, two Israeli soldiers are captured by Hezbollah and Israel launches a mass incursion to get them back.

Let's just see what happens along the way. My prediction : Israel goes too far and accidentally( or intentionally) attacks the Lebanese Army and both of the country goes to war. Iran and Syria backs Lebanon, U.S and Co. (Brits included) backs Israel and boom!, you've got yourself another major war.

I wonder how the mothers of these soldiers would feel if they met each other.

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2006-07-12T17:46:00.000+08:00

Chapter 44 : I Predict No Riot, Now.

Well, hello there. I just feel like updating my blog today with some stuffs. I had school today, just my Video Production practicals. Jeanine went to check on our raw Valentine's Patriot footages thoroughly. It's a good thing she helped by giving valuable tips and highlighted some of her concerns so we can attend to them immediately. I can't wait to start editting Valentine's Patriot, my version of it of course.

So basically I just finished doing my MMAD (Multimedia Application Design) assignment which is to create a storyboard on how the application is going to be like. I just finished the main menu! It took me an hour to think of the layout and creating it in Photoshop. Here's a preview of it and do give me your feedbacks if there's any:

The GUI of the main menu. I want it to be simple but classic looking at the same time. Actually, I diverted away from what I planned in my Treatment! Wahahaha. Who cares anyway...

Now I'm still working on the other pages of the application and yeah, I have to re-read the whole FLASH book just to refresh my memory. I have no clue whatsoever on how to link them together. Whahaaaha. Don't worry though, that's why we have the book for!

Anyways, a few days ago when I'm feeling stressed to the core, I did some photo editting. I don't know my motive for doing them but I'll just show them to you. I do the editting, you do the thinking k?

Listen to this image's heavy breathing and feel the anxiety of encountering the unknown.

Bang! Bang! J.J shot you down. Wasted~

Let me summarise what I need to do:

Finish up MMAD storyboard and prototype at the same time.
Finish up MMPJ Reflection Report.
Finish up TBCM Resume.
MMMI's Music Composition Assignment.
Valentine's Patriot Post Production Stage.
Start planning for Canon Digital Fest.
Study for relevant examination modules (TBCM, MMPJ, MMAD, MMMI and MMAS).

School's fun . (SARCASM USED)

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2006-07-06T22:42:00.000+08:00

Chapter 43 : To shoot, kill and love.

There's something strange in the air lately and that is pride and love. This two ingredients mixing to form some kind of egoistic-love thing. Basically what I am trying to say here is I'm sick and tired of people who boast about their relationship so much that they use it to make other people feel jealous and insecure about themselves or their relationship with their significant others (if they have so).

I walk the streets and I see couples. I'll be honest here and I'll write down what I see everyday. Couples see me walking and make up just try to make me envy. Well, Mr Love and Ms Love, fuck you. =) I don't give a shit if your relationship rocks your socks that you sleep with your nipples harden every night. I don't give a shit if she sucks your dick and you just pat her like she's your pet kitten that licks.

See I'm not against public display of affection but there are boundaries that separates public display of affection from just being a show off. There's this once I saw this couple, both are good looking I must say, a glance I took as I walk by. Right after I do so, the girl starts to make out with the guy as if implying "hey! I got a boyfriend and I can kiss him silly!". Deep inside I would reply by "Hey Shitdick! I don't give a fuck!". Once they finished, they stared at me as if Operation Boasting is accomplished. Hell, it's this kind of people I don't get.

Hey, if you really love someone so badly, you wouldn't need to show it to people but you wouldn't need to hide it either. You just have to be subtle. Think of other people's thoughts and comment about how they would feel if indeed they were to see you just because you want to show them you have someone to love. For those of you who think I'm being a conservative, well, you're dead wrong. I'm just concern that your affection could turn out to be an insult to the people around you.

To sum up my rant, show your affection towards your significant other because you mean it and not because you want to make others envy you. Personally, I'd rather have my significant other pull me (or I'll pull her or carry her or fireman's carry her) somewhere quiet to do whatever than to show it publicly just to boast about us. Yes, be proud of love but don't trangress limits that you do so for pride and to hurt others.

(Pardon my language, I swear when I'm not feeling 100%)

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2006-07-01T19:48:00.000+08:00

Chapter 42 : Happy July.

Incredible how time flies by and nobody notices it. Notice how fast time past in this modern age of ours. In almost everything we do, it must be done in rapid pace. The food we buy--should be ready the moment we want it hence the American's idea of food on the go or fast food. Speaking of fast food, I really start to dislike it. They make eating oily food so fun and "easy". Fast food have been so acquainted with our local culture that almost everyone have eaten at least one fast food meal. Hmm.

School just reopened for SP students and a whole lot of assignment deadlines just came in like mad shoppers waiting outside a mega store for it to open. Now, let me see what assignments do I have to pass up : MMAD, TBCM, MMPJ and yeah, the SMIT T-shirt Competition. I promised Leon that I'm going to enter again this year. Wahaha.

Another thing I have been wondering is about my future. With this diploma I have, most probably I won't go that far. Therefore, I'm hoping to further my studies. Try to get a Mass Communication or Media Management degree or go if not to go to a professional film school. That would be cool. I want to be Director or a Producer. By hook or by CROOK!

Anyways, I can't let my mind wander too far. I need to finish up my Valentine's Patriot production because I have a lot of people anticipating it's debut. Wahaha. Do wait ya? I promise you it'll be worth the wait.

Some graphic designs I did.

Just another day.

Hafeez : "Oi! Cover me eh!"

Zid : "I'm out of ammo..I cover using my dick."

American Soldier In Between : "Thank God we have this two dickheads!"

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2006-06-15T22:18:00.000+08:00

Chapter 42 : Valentine's Patriot Promotion

End (Further details in previous post).

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2006-06-15T20:39:00.000+08:00

Chapter 40 : Here Comes The Stellar Rain.

"If a man has nothing to die for, then he isn't fit to live." - Martin Luther King.

It has been a very, very hectic and busy week for me. Even during the E-learning week which was 2 weeks ago, I am already occupied with my upcoming Production and doing those measly quizzes put up on the Blackboard by our Lecturers. I spent most of my time filming and planning stuffs for my Production, 10am to 11pm on the first three days of every week. Tiring but I can't wait to see the end product!

Production : Valentine's Patriot

Would you kill someone for your country?

Would you rather die for your loved ones than your country?

What if the two were to collide and you have to choose?

These are the questions that will keep popping inside your head once you see our Production. Anyways, we did a lot of stuffs and I can honestly say, we're on the right track. However, our budget is very high - props, taxi fares, food, MY BLAZER etc. I bet our budget has reached $150 and over. Quite high for our level just for your information. Here's some behind the scenes sneaks :

Having fun with the props. =)

Props la. Sweet.

Ingredients for blood.

Typical post-filming scene.

Rambo and Terminator would erect just looking at this.

Filming at ECP. Syaz with boom pole and Joey with video camera. Des all smiles.

And just so you know, there will be a military face off scene. So we got some camo fatigues and equipments and some guys, BOOM, you have yourself some soldiers. Well, sort of. Wahaha.

Mama and Papa were laying in bed. Papa rolled over and a soldier he gets.

Rainbow Six. Rainbow Zid.

Hafeez's gonna blow my head off while I'm gonna "tag" his dick.

Hafeez and myself were all dressed and armed with our pellet guns! While taking photos of ourselves (vainly), J.J and Stan could be heard coming near the room. So we decided to attack them the moment they entered! So we wait to ambush them.

Ready to STORM! The moment we stormed out of the room, we find J.J and stan running into the bathroom and locking themselves in! Wahahahahaaa. J.J armed with a pole and Stan with a basin!

A candid sudden shot of what they're doing! J.J ready to er..poke us..with the pole.

While some of us are having fun playing "soldiers" around the apartment. Others took time off to snap a self portrait for the Cute Pose Competition.

Poh li :

Say "Wuoooooooh!"

Joey :

And the winner for the Cute Pose Competition is Joey..hands down.

Hmm. We still have another day of filming to go before the Production stage is over and we can proceed to Post-Production stage. Hopefully, everything will run smoothly just like we planned. I can't wait for the final outcome, it'll rock socks, drop jaws, harden nipples and erect dicks.

Valentine's Patriot Brief Notes:

I drank fake blood and spit it out.
During our filming, Police were called in because people thought we're suspicious.
I shot a bird with the pellet gun.
Hafeez scared a bird with pellet gun.
Joey bump her chin on the sink (I'm so sorry!).
Joey puke fake blood from her mouth.
J.J drives the car.
J.J piggy back poh li.
Don't hand any Pellet Gun to Syaz.
Syaz shot me in the ass. Psycho.
Stan doesn't qualify to be a terrorist.
Stan looks funny in army fatigues.
Poh li is impossible to lift.
J.J and myself almost broke our backs trying to lift poh li.
Introduction scene is long enough for me to do 100 push ups.
Hafeez, Stan and J.J smell "nice" in camo uniforms (SARCASM USED).
Poh li shouts "3, 2, 1..Ayayayayaya--yaaaktion!"
Thank you, Desmond (for alot of stuffs).
I love my Production and My crew.

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2006-06-09T18:29:00.000+08:00

Chapter 39 : Valentine's Patriot

Just to tell everyone that I know, I'm producing a short video entitled "Valentine's Patriot". A story of a single man who contemplates between love and patriotism, your dear or your country, your soul mate or your homeland.

Here's a behind the scene shot of our production :

Boys love guns. I especially love girls with guns. =)

Note to everyone doing VIDP, Valentine's Patriot gonna kick your video's ass! To my production crew : J.J, Joey, Syaz and Poh li, we're gonna kick ass! Woohooo..I love my production and my crew too.

Valentine's Patriot : Still in Production Stage.

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2006-06-04T20:09:00.000+08:00

Chapter 38 : Explosive Against Boredom.

Yesterday my crew and myself went to recce the places that we are going to shoot for our next video production called "Valentine's Patriot". We went to DSTA, town, Desmond's house and J.J's place or I should say places. Anyways, after going around to evaluate the shooting locations, J.J and myself decided to play with some explosives! Yup, explosives against boredom!

I don't have any idea what kind of fruit that is actually. I don't care, honestly.

Ready..10, 9, 8, 7, 6...

Ignition in 5, 4, 3, 2, 1...

Hey girl I wanna put a TNT on your wave...

Dynamite freak.

Look like V for Vendetta right?

Nahh. It did not destroy the fruit. The explosion just warms it.

I wanna see an explosion, dear!

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2006-06-02T00:14:00.000+08:00

Chapter 37 : Don't Believe In Singing Fiction.

Ever wonder why? Because life is not about watching other people's dreams become a reality but it's about achieving yours.

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2006-05-29T20:25:00.000+08:00

Chapter 36 : Great Zid Sale.

The purpose of this post is solely to advertise new stuff that I am selling off.

Let me start off with what happened today. It was during our Video Production lecture and as usual all of us didn't pay much attention and were chit chatting with each other. Suddenly, Jeanine, our lecturer, started asking questions and those who gave the right answer recieves free Singapore Idol Tickets! I answer 1 right (GOBOR!) and yeah, I got one! Actually I have 2 because Jeanine just gave me the other one left.

Too bad I'm not really interested in Singapore Idol. So I'm selling it off. Interested parties please contact me via e-mail at scaryzidscaringkidstheory@hotmail.com .

Further details on my page column.

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2006-05-27T21:21:00.000+08:00

Chapter 35 : This These.

Did some graphic designs. Look and enjoy. Oh yeah. Please do give me some feedbacks. The 2006 SMIT T-shirt Design Competiton is just around the corner so I'm brushing up on my graphic design skill. Hopefully, this year I'll get more than just 3rd place.

This will probably happen when Apocalypse is just around the corner.

The Invasion has begun, dude. What will you do if you wake up one morning and see aggressive fighter planes flying high above?

That way.

Anyways, went to Beach Road just now to get some props for my next video production : "Valentine's Patriot"--a story about love over patriotism. So I bought myself a replica sub machine gun called the MP5 (Navy).

1 round to shoot them all.

By the way, I'll probably be busy over the next few days so don't expect me to blog that much. Too much stuff to do for my video production and I have some practical tests coming in the next 2 weeks. Furthermore, I'm going to take part in the T-shirt Competition like I mentioned, so, I'm going to be fully occupied with tasks!

Kill Central Processing Unit's Monitor. That's all I can say now.

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2006-05-26T18:30:00.000+08:00

Chapter 34 : Empty Head Makes You Fade.

This is what I did. (Prototype) D-ster : RETRO.

Just for your information as to why I have not been blogging for the almost a week is because either I'm too busy or I have no mood.

This semester is not stressful but it forces a frown upon everyone's face. Shit. I hate it the timetable, I hate MMPJ and I hate the fact that you put in so much into something but finally turns out to be crap! SO I'm not going to blog again until I'm in the right mood.

Shit.

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2006-05-13T20:12:00.000+08:00

Chapter 33 : Ta'at Setia (Always faithful).

So today I had a very eye opening experience on Singapore's history. Hafeez (hFz) and myself made our way to Reflections At Bukit Chandu museum located somewhere at Pepys road or along Pasir Panjang. The main reason for it is actually for our MMAD (Multimedia Application Design) project. Elynn, our lecturer, told us to go to the various museums in Singapore and pick a topic to create an application on. I choose-"The Malay Regiment"!

The journey there sucks for your information. You have to climb up an estimated 2km winding road up the hill before you see the entrance of the museum. Strategically placed during the war but not visitor-friendly as a museum, now.

The museum house the artifacts and other educational mediums such as videos, audio recording and even a brief documentry at each of the four galleries. Mainly the Reflections At Bukit Chandu focuses on the how the Malay Regiment under the British Command, fought for Singapore til the very end.

Entrance of the museum! Finally we reached the peak of Bukit Chandu. Woohooo~

Looks like your ordinary bungalow up on a hill right? Wrong!

The Mortar Team Monument outside the museum. Soldier hFz holding the shoulder : "Ey! don't touch touch eh!!"

Soldier : "Ey stupid asshole, don't look into the rifle muzzle, you want to die is it?"

Soldiers of the Malay Regiment who perished on The Battle Of Bukit Chandu.

Some of the gift goodies available at the entrance of gallery. Note, those are replica handgun each priced at $180+. Birthday present? Wahahaa.

Battle For Singapore! A short multimedia documentry at gallery 1.

On the way to gallery 2, upstairs, we saw General Yamashita's statue. I don't know if it's a 1:1 scale or not, but if it so, I can't take him on anyday. Bring it on, Yamashithead!

2nd Lieutenant Adnan Bin Saidi. A glorious war hero with the ever famous qoute of "Death before dishonor".

Relax, dude. It's only a WWII helmet. Don't get orgasmic over it.

The Malay Regiment's uniform, a modified version of the British uniform.

Heavy Machine gun. No, no. A real one on loan from the National Military Heritage.

You see the size of that round?! It'll break your body apart.

We've seen alot of cool stuffs there. We made our mind up. We love Adnan.

Anyways, we head on to the Canopy Walk nearby the museum just to chill out for a while and because the museum curator told us we can see a tank there. Fuck him because he lied! We didn't see any tank when we finished walking through the Canopy Walk. I want my tank!! Damn.

Visually stimulating. I know I am. =)

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2006-05-12T21:24:00.000+08:00

Chapter 32 : A Mask Behind A Man

I've been reading a very enchanting novel lately and it's called "The Rule Of Four". I'm actually half way through it but it has kept me on the edge ever since I read the first line. Basically, it's some sort of Da Vinci Code type of book but this one is about an ancient mysterious Renaissance book called the Hypernotomachia Poliphilia or Poliphilia's Struggle For Love In A Dream. This book is said to contain a secret hidden message layered under a love story but disguised as an encyclopedia. How cool is that?!

The original author of the text itself is unknown as it was first printed in Venice circa Decemeber 1499. It is said that it contain a secret message that many scholars around the world still couldn't figure out! Even Renaissance intellectuals who sees Shakespeare's McBeth similar to how we see the average kindergarten student's book, have gave up on discovering it's true secrets. How I wish I could do that.

The plain reason why scholars have yet to decipher this book is because firstly, it is layered with many cipher techniques, secondly, there's no one main perspective in the book (i.e sometimes it reads as a narrative and descriptive) and lastly some of the language the author invented himself. Only a remarkable man can write such an outstanding text that leaves everyone in awe.

The main cipher techniques used by the author, whoever the hell he/her is, is Steganography and Crytography. Let me explain.

Steganography

Steganography is the art and science of writing hidden messages in such a way that no one apart from the intended recipient knows of the existence of the message. The word itself is from a Greek word meaning "covered" or "hidden writing". This type of art has been widely used throughout history and in most prominently in World War II.

For example, espionage agents from either of the Fronts concealed top secret messages in microdots of ordinary paper with text such as grocery list etc. This simple full stop or micro dot that you see in this page is such an example of the dot. Your typical dot but within it stores a message of up to 10 to 12 words depending on the special microdot typewriter used. Amazing huh?

That's probably what Hitler send to Mussolini before they had an affair. Wahahaha.

Another one, the infamous Doll Woman, a Japanese Spy in New York during World War II. The Doll Woman's real name Velvalee Dickinson sent information about American ship movement back to her homeland by encoding the information in stegotext and is embedded into the receipts and paperslips of the Doll. Even now steganograhpy has been reborn into ciphertext to store information within another information through cyberspace. Simply incredible.

Cryptology

Cryptography or cryptology is a field of mathematics and computer science concerned with information security and related issues, particularly encryption and authentication. This technique however is becoming less and less popular since it is now easily decoded using the computer. Yet, advance counterparts of crytology has been widely used in information security such as Symmetric Key Algorithm.

This method however is more obivious and easily detected by medium trained specialist and it also bring attention to itself when unnecassary unlike Steganography. The most basic form of this technique is codename. For example, "Rainbow" is decoded into "Raining" or whatever depending on the assigned meaning to that specific word.

I developed an interest for this. Woohooo. You could hide information from people and pass it to the ones you want without people having to read it. The ultimate information protection!

Now lemme try:

Playfair CipherText : htfmylkhngrv

Meaning in plain text or normal english : I'm a caring boy

Mommy, I'm learning to learn to hide my secrets from you! Happy Mothers' Day.

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2006-05-05T17:01:00.000+08:00

Chapter 31 : Got Satay?

Satay. How I hunger for it the other day. I held a place for it inside my stomach until a few days ago. It satisfied my lustful hunger to gobble up that gentle meat from the frame. Wahaha. I make it sound so disturbing. Since I watched "Lost & Found Makan Places - Satay episode" on channel 5, I suddenly have the urge to eat one. So we did. At Lau Pa Sat with udi, aIN and bulu(azri).

"Mr. Buluside" by The Saviors.

We met at city hall and decided to go to the Esplanade before heading to Lau Pa Sat. There was an Indonesian Orchestral Presentation going on when we reached there. Kinda cool listening to the soothing sounds. Really reminds me something or someone. Not sure.

Quite a number turn out to witness the presentation. Nice.

Enjoying the music I see.

After taking a moment to savour the beautiful soothing Indonesian melody, we head towards Lau Pa Sat. Lau Pa Sat--the place for the makansutras to come and indulge in local cuisines. What we're looking for is simple yet special--The Satay!

I just love the old British architecture. Makes you feel nostalgic. And hungry!

We bought 3 kind of foods actually. For myself, black pepper chicken fried rice. Udi had the black pepper beef rice. Bulu going for the seafood fried rice and Ain, the spicy seafood fried rice. But our main meal would have to be the satays! Ouh yeah, we bought some sotong thinggy too! (I forgot the freaking name of it)

How kind of Bulu to pay for us first. "Beep!" Well, I paid him my share of the meal.

I told them I didn't wear my underwear. Udi gay look. aIN curious look. Wahahahah!

You can call us The Caring Boys.

"Lembaga hitam"(Black Creature)--A member of The Caring Boys.

Satay! 10 Chicken and Beef. 20 of 'em gobbled up by us.

A special sauce by Iron Chef Sakai.

The Caring Family. Hey! The old guy was in an accident, okie!

Next destination was Suntec's Swensen. For dessert, we enjoyed some ice cold delicious ice cream. Yum yum.

Sweet, lovely and creamy.

I spiked Bulu's drink with pepper. He felt...normal but tasted a weird spicy taste afterwards. Good. We can take advantage of him.

A few quotes of the day :

"Duit buku lagi belum beli" (I haven't buy the money to buy books)
"SKODENG" (a malaysian slang for something like oogling)

Ever wish you have guys like The Caring Boys?

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2006-04-29T20:55:00.000+08:00

Chapter 30 : Concepts Leading Nowhere

Walk down the streets of Orchard Road or Bugis. Lots of teenagers and youths running around like stray dogs and cats. Some of them purring, fighting and of course, mating (recorded on video cell phone). This is the ever increasing youth of the nation. Juvenile deliquency is still a major problem among the locals today. I'm not one of them so let me give you a mature spectrum of view about this whole poo.

Trends and concepts

What are they? Basically they are ideas, image, personality, likes and dislikes combined into one compact package. These package have various source of influences coming from different parts of the world and even from different historical backgrounds. Shallow minded teenagers who wants an identity for themselves will most probably adopt one of the concepts. Let's look into them and unravel the concept's negative effects on the teenagers.

Concept 1 : Posers / Poseurs

This concept is the most popular among the local youths in Singapore. The title of Poser / Poseur usually refers to a teenager who basically have no concept at all but adopts one for the sake of showing off to his/her peers. Most often they would pick up and throw concepts around just to fit the timeframe and place. Let me tell you a story about a friend I left behind.

His name is Hairul (real name given to not protect his identity) and he used to be a close friend of mine til he became a poser for life. He started out to pose as someone who skates when in reality, he can't even Ollie (hops on the skateboard). As a year passed, he found out that his skater gimmick isn't working for him so he discards it and adopt another.

That other concept is gangsterism. This is probably the last gimmick he'll take because from what I've heard and seen, he's a full-fledged gangster roaming the streets of Bedok. Of course, a poser gangster. He was criticised and hated by many including me for having no sense of originality whatsoever.

In reality, this kind of people are actually insecure of themselves. Knowing full well that being just himself, he would never gain popularity easily, he opted for a more notorious approach. That approach is being someone whom everybody would know him by (e.g bully, class gangster, "that kid that skates well"). This are the kind of people that will fail in the future. The reason being they have not yet wake up to the smell of reality's coffee. They're still in an imaginary world of their own.

Concept 2 : Rudies, Two-Tone

They are called Rudies. Rude Boys for the males and Rude Girls for the female counterpart. You can spot them by awfully formal dressing code with their trademark color of black and white and none other. Another thing that sets this concept apart is their love for Ska genre of music. Ska is one of the Jamaican spectrum of music and has it's building blocks from jazz and RNB.

I have nothing against the music but I have everything against the way the concept works. Similar to what I have said before, this degenerates the thinking of the youths. Their current belief stands that everything is either black or white. This is definitely false. There different shades of grey in between and millions of colors they have yet to acknowledge. The setbacks are that these kids will want to work for their clothes.

Mind you that those formal wear are not cheap. Being that they need style, they wouldn't want to get their hands on clothes that are cheap or second hand. This is wear their priorities in life will be gone. Let us not let them fully embrace their concept as it will bring forward their demise.

Concept 2 : Skinheads

Another concept which need to eradicated from our youths' mind is Skinhead subculture. The skinhead subculture has different interpretation among our local youths and most of them adopt the extreme side of it--violence, hatred and love for nazism. Skinhead subculture derives from the ideas of music, style and pride of work. They are usually spotted with their shaven heads, tucked-in shirt, suspenders/tight pants and high cut boots.

Most of them know nothing of their concept because they're all mimicking each other. They're like putting on the devil's skin and claiming they don't know what the hell is a devil. That is what basically they are doing. Let me shed some light into their notorious subculture.

Mainstream Skinhead worldwide center their culture around white supremacy, rascism and anarchy.
Neo-Nazi in Germany adopted Skinhead subculture as their facade.
Known for being politically incorrect, rascist and hooliganism.

Too bad counter attempts and movement from peaceful traditionalist Skinhead suchs as SHARP and ARA have proven futile. Another thing to point out is our locals youth adopt the hooliganism extreme of the culture and we should stop them. If not, at least educate them on the "wonders" of the peaceful skinhead.

Concept 3 : Music based Posers

In general, the two concepts above most likely falls into this concept too. The need for clothing that represents a certain kind of music genre. For example, baggy clothes and sparkling silver accessories define hip-hop and RNB. Why must clothing define what music genre you like? This stereotype have been going on for years and sadly people have begun to accept it.

Let's see the main stereotypes :

Rock (in general)

Clothing : designer T-shirts, leather, hairstyles, wrist bands, silver studs, skate/chucks shoes

Hip-Hop and RNB (in general)

Clothing : baggy basketball/baseball shirts, designer truck cap, silver accessories, basketball shoes

Many youths nowadays adopt this kind of music based clothing and the root of the problem is this "clothing defines music" idea. It shouldn't be that way because clothes are only skin deep and what's inside means a lot more than what's outside. For example, my friend aIN. She has her own sense of fashion and that is different from the typical rock/indie image. Moreover, people around her are surprise to know she can play rock/indie music.

Editor's Note

Please. Do not let any concept from the above influence you or your friends. This loss of originality will eventually become a new threat facing our local youths. You do not want to say mindless mimes mimicking each other everywhere in the street don't you? Just be yourself. Do not let peer pressure get you, stand your ground and show your middle finger! Be yourself!

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2006-04-23T19:55:00.000+08:00

Chapter 29 : Thank You But You're Not Welcome.

You know I've been thinking about something a lot lately. It's about the concept of our security and the War On Terrorism that has been the center of our decision making. We have to make sure anything that we do or say does not threaten the future of our sons and daughters. We have to make sure the government does whatever it can so that there will never be any terror attacks on Singaporean soil.

Love > Fear. Love is bigger than fear. Quite true.

Have you ever wonder what the consequences of War On Terrorism are?

Well, let me give you the first answer to it-- diminished sense of liberty. Many of you would probably have not notice the lack of rights and civil control we have in our daily lives. Everything we do will be monitored and if it happens to not be of the interest of the government, they will suppress you. For example, I am talking in context of Singapore, where can you protest and do rally without being ushered away by policemens? The Speakers Corner. Even if you want to do so in another place, you have to apply for a permit with the Police. How democratic is that?

Secondly, loss of privacy. For example, In U.S they have The U.S.A Patriot Act. The definition of it is "Uniting and Strengthening America by Providing Appropriate Tools Required to Intercept and Obstruct Terrorism" Act. Don't be fooled by the definition because this act in itself is the best of example of the U.S government slowly taking control of the people's lives. They can tapped in your phone conversations and records if they have a "reason" to believe you are committing treason against your country. Some Americans have voiced out their opinions that the Patriot Act restricts their basic human rights.

War to stop all wars.

The U.S.A waged the War On Terrorism and they are set to root out all the terrorist organisation that threatens the peaceful world. Yes, a war to end the evil. Some might argue that war helped solved the World Wars that happened. It ended the war and yes, to some extent it solved the problem that Hitler has created. However, there's so many problems that exist today as a result of the World Wars. For example, Israeli-Palestinian conflict, North Korea problem and the number of Japanese having genetic problems due to the Hiroshima and Nagasaki atom bombing.

Another thing I find disgusting is the fact that leaders who wage war on others have soldiers to fight for them. Such cowardly policy is now widespread everywhere in the world. During the 17th, 18th and even in the early 19th century, leaders of nations lead the soldiers into war and knowing well that they too could well be the casualities of war. Napolean Bonaparte is a fine example. He lead his soldiers into the conflict and that is what I call a real leader.

Soldiers: Another Pawn In A Richman's Game Of Chess.

Soldiers, how much I pity those serving in the so called War On Terrorism. Fine young men and women who would sacrifise everything just to make sure their loved ones are safe. I sympathise the families of the soldiers who perished in the conflict that has been ongoing for they fought an unworthy cause. A cause which in the end does not benefit anyone but the war profiteers and power hungry leaders.

Lastest War On Terrorism (Iraq War etc.) Casualty Count :

Coalition Soldiers : 2599 (Lastest : 23 April 2006)

Do remember there are thousands of other soldiers M.I.A(Missing In Action) and wounded. Furthermore, this is not the definitive count and chances are the number is higher than reported.

Tragic Death Of Valor Souls.

October 2001 came and orders rain,

Fight with honor and it'll come again;

Blood, sweat and tears you will retain,

Forever in your memory it will remain.

I thank you for giving up your lives,

For belittle I feel for not joining your glorious fight;

May you guard the gates of paradise waiting for your wives,

I'll give you my salute for you die fighting for my right.

End.

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2006-04-19T16:29:00.000+08:00

Chapter 28 : Smile Joyful Soul.

I want to dedicate a happy birthday post to NURAIN BINTE SHARIFUDDIN. Well, the birthday is last monday actually! Wahahahaa. It totally slipped through my mind. So I'm sorry. I'll sing you the original version of Happy Birthday song. For your information, the everfamous "Happy Birthday To You" song is actually on loan to the international population.

Guess what, the expiry date for the song to be free from copyright issue will be on 2030. It's true!!! Go check it out yourself.

Happy Birthday To You.

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday dear aIN,
Happy birthday to you.

How old are you now,
How old are you now,
How old are you aIN,
How old are you now?

Many more may you have,
Many more may you have,
Many more happy birthdays,
Many more may you have.

And many more,
On Channel Four,
And Scooby Doo,
On Channel Two.

18 years old.

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2006-04-13T21:26:00.000+08:00

Chapter 27 : All Blissful Ignorance Syndrome Reject

This post is dedicated to the skeptics and people who thinks that my last post is rubbish and actually is nothing more than fables. Readers' discretion is, still and always be, advised.

In the last post, we heard about the various conspiracy theories that has been widespread throughout the internet and across the globe. Yes, as the two interdependent word suggests, conspiracy is a theory and whatever conspiracy that takes place has to be a theory before proven true and hence, fact.

However, let me ask you this question : What does science mean to you? Science in itself is the understanding of the universe through observation, investigation, research and analysis. Furthermore, science is not the definite answer to everything and anything. That's why we have scientists--to further understand the universe and correct faulty theories.

Yes, science has it's roots from theory. Do remember that many of science's forefathers are labelled as insane when they theorised about an idea which in fact was proven to be true many years later. For example, Isaac Newton. He was criticised for his work intensively before being able to make it as the most influential person in science history.

Now as you can see theory can be proven. This is the point that I want to bring out. Conspiracy theories are more than just theories. This is what people want to believe and feel. Contradictingly, the general public feels safe by refusing the credibiltity of these theories and hence being ignorant. The media too play a vital role in programming the public to reject conspiracy theories as pseudoscience (theories and philosophies that can't be proven by science).

Before, I go yakking passionately about my main agenda. I'd like people to read through my sources and determine whether or not conspiracy theories are indeed lies.

For your everyday conspiracy theories, please visit:

http://www.abovetopsecret.com/forum/

[Latest breaking news:

AT&T, a high end communication company in America is sued for aiding spying on fellow Americans.

These are first based on theories and then proven to be true.]

For your evidence on theories, please visit:

http://www.informationclearinghouse.info/

Here's a piece of advice for you folks out there. I'm not trying to rally hate against a certain group of news source but I'm doing so to make sure you get your news from the more reliable sources. CNN and (especially) FoxNews is known for distorting reports to fit their own biased agenda. Sometimes even journalist tends to exaggerate a story to feed their major players.

Another thing I'd like to point out is the pure credibility of a theory. There is a lot of theories out there with solid evidence of a greater power at play but people ignored it as if were junk articles. For example, the 9/11 incident. Google it or simply visit ATS and you'll tremble to see the concrete evidence brought forward by conspiracy theorists.

And yes, I am fully aware of distorted theories and fables that is going on around the internet which is placed by pranksters. Did you know that even this is a conspiracy in itself. COINTELPRO (Counter Intelligence Program) managed by the U.S FBI, is responsible for disrupting and misdirecting information through any given medium. They would probably have spread a bogus conspiracy theory or two to misdirect us from the truth.

There's even lots of free conspiracy building websites that gives you a chance to create a theory of your own. I am, too, fully aware of that. Here's one of them :

http://www.cjnetworks.com/~cubsfan/conspiracy.html

I hope this post gives you a clearer depth of thinking and new understanding of conspiracy theories. Major conspiracy theories that I have published here comes from well established conspiracy theories sources which have proven to be reliable time and time again. It's you that decide whether you want to believe it or reject it as nothing more than thrash. But. Please be reminded that someday that thrash will be back to haunt you if it's true.

Our worst nightmare have come true and time will tell what mankind will make out of it. Sometimes theories aren't just theories but they mean a whole lot more than that simple intrigue.

I'll end with a commentary from a scholar, Noah Webster (1832):

"In selecting men for office, let principle be your guide. Regard not the particular sect or denomination of the candidate--look to his character. . . . When a citizen gives his suffrage to a man of known immorality he abuses his trust; he sacrifices not only his own interest, but that of his neighbor, he betrays the interest of his country. "

[Noah Webster, Letters to a Young Gentleman Commencing His Education to which is subjoined a Brief History of the United States (New Haven: S. Converse, 1823), pp. 18, 19.]

We have been betrayed. All of us.

End.

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2006-04-08T21:14:00.000+08:00

Chapter 26 : I Spy With My Two Eyes The Real World.

Okie. Okie. Now let me warn you that whatever that you are going to read below may change your perspective about the world you live in. So, if you want to continue, do so at your own discretion. Comments will be much appreciated by fellow bloggers.

The world we live in. Is it really true? Does everything we see is actually real? Like what Morpheous in the blockbuster Matrix said : "How do you define real ?" If you define real through your five sense, that just means that whatever your brain can digest is "real" and anything else is just null, empty or zero. Read what I just read, anything "else". "Else" is the thing which we as humans are incapable of deciphering. Let's go in depth into what I meant.

Section A : Who's In Control Of Our Lives?

If your mind says "I am", you are half correct. You do control what you do but you don't control how you think. The simple reason is everything you see around is no more than electrical signals being passed into your brains to decipher and generate the result. The result is reality. Many theorists have understood the way the human mind and body work in relation to the outcome of our lives.

For example, have you ever wanted something so badly that you really get what you wanted? This is the most simple example of all. Some people call it the human spirit. Those are minute moments where you actually have a certain amount of control in your life. The truth is we live in a 3 dimensional holographic world where "something" is in control of us. These "something" lives in an interdimensional world far surpassing anything we can imagine in this 3D world.

Section B : Who's In Control Of Us Then? And Who's The "Something"?

Believe it or not, your worst nightmare have come true. Big Brother is in control of you. Your lives are controlled by a group beings that lives in the interdimensional world. I can safely tell you that all Conspiracy Theorists believes that George Bush and Company is in control of our lives. Be it you're a Singaporean, Malaysian or and American. Everything is under their control.

Let me share with you one of the most compelling and hard to digest theory. The theory states that there is an elite group of beings who councils and plans our world. They are called "The Skull And Bones Society" or the "Order Of Skull And Bones". Let me get this straight, this are not your average gangsters or cult that you see in the newspapers. This is the most elite international cult in the world and they consist of Yale University Graduates and many influential figureheads including the Bush Family.

Yes, you'd say "hey! they're human!". So what makes them special that they control us? Well, firstly, the people in this society controls the world politics, international industries and businesses, world oil reserves, mass media and science. Secondly, the elites all are connected to an ancient British Royal bloodline which seeks a centrists control on the world and has it's roots all the way back to medieval times. Lastly, they are not human. They are what we call "Shapeshifters".

Section C : What the...Shapeshifters?

Yes, they are Shapeshifters. The word speaks for itself. They can manipulate their facade according to the dimensional world they want to go. For example, in this 3D world they are "humans" but in some other dimensions, theorists have said that they are reptilians or reptoids. A reptoid is a half human and half lizard kind of creature. However, that is merely another facade. Their true is self is still a mystery but one thing is for sure, they are not who they claim to be.

Where do they come from? They are known to be time travellers too as interdimensional travel is equivalent to travelling through time and space. Where they really come from is also a mystery. These are the beings that control our reality and trust me, they are up to no good.

Section D : Our Ever Changing World.

The world keeps changing as human advances with technology and science. However, have you noticed how controlled our lives have become? Especially our freedom, education and ideas. Our freedom have been slowly taken away from under our nose due to security threats. Education is based on what we know and not what we are not suppose to know. Ideas on life and reality is suppressed and often mocked when it exaggerates "stereotypical reality". This is what The Skull And Bones Society Want.

A world under one rule. A world under a centrist government that will unite everyone and all of us will finally inherit the long awaited title of "Earthlings". We will no longer be known by our ethnic differences--malay, chinese, indian or what have you but we will be nothing more than Earthlings. Novus Ordo Seclorum-- New Order Of Ages. This is what they want and the means used to achieve it is unlawful and inhumane.

Let us not be fooled by the notion of a centrist control. Yes, some of you may cite the positives of a one control but how will The Skull and Bones Society control us? The answer, pure brutal supression and lies. They have selfish goals and aims that are not of the interest of us humans. The simple examples of their effortless way to further their aim of one world order is the 9/11 incident, War On Terrorism and the Iraq War. All this a ploy to quicken the pace of a one government world with U.S.A on top of the food chain.

Section E : What We Know Is Their Past.

Everything you know about science, technology and biomedical is 5 decades away from what The Skull And Bones know or are. All the information are kept secret and away from us to ensure we will become their lego sets. Let me sum up with some of the theories which may baffle most of you.

There is an InterGalatic Government Of Galaxies which rule every galaxy in the universe. We are yet to become one but with the help of the Skull And Bones Society, we will. We are in constant check by other aliens from other dimensions. We are in the nuclear age and we are no longer considered "primitive" by the aliens.
We have contact with them and their headquaters for Earth can be located in the Earth's Crust and on the Moon (underground and opposing surface of the moon where we cannot see them).
We are under constant threat from an alien race called the "Greys" as their biological invasion have begun. The Greys and the Skull And Bones Society have made a pact and in return for having human test and breeding subjects, the Greys will provide the Skull and Bones Society with alien technology.
We have achieved Time Travel. It is however kept under secret and only the elite few knows the details of it.
MILSTAR and ECHELON. They are advanced satellites capable of tracking one's existence wherever and whenever.
We have achieved primitive Invisibility. U.S Navy codenames it Project Rainbow or Philadelphia Experiment.
AIDS is a biological weapon engineered by the U.S Department Of Defense. It is a breed of deadly virus and is intentionally designed to have no natural immunity cure. Purpose of it is to control the fast growing world population.

This is just the tip of the iceberg. Yes, it is scary but it is much more scarier to know that you have absolutely no knowledge of this whatsoever.

Get educated. Visit ATS.

"Deny ignorance".

End.

[P.S : Read up as much as you can and be aware of current issues affecting your lives. However, as much as I can say, we can only gain the knowledge and there's nothing much we can do except spread love to others and give peace a chance.]

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2006-04-06T14:48:00.000+08:00

Chapter 25 : Boredom Kills.

Hey. It's been a long freaking time since I blog. The main reason is because I have nothing to blog. I've become a sort of vegetable the past few days. Did nothing. Gain nothing. Lost precious time. Wahahaa. Inside me there's this feeling that says "holidays rocks!" but another part of me just can't wait for school to reopen. By the way, anyone have any interesting stuffs to do, do tell me ya. I beg of you. =)

Browsing through youtube the other day, searching for supernatural videos. What a stupid thing that turn out be. Hoax after hoax is produced by amateurs with handphone cameras. There's even a comment there that even said that Singaporeans have nothing to do but conjure up hoaxes. Generalising there. A bad way to make your point. By the way, let me give you some tips on how to pick out hoax ghost videos.

The ghost in the clip : realistic or simply fake?
Reaction of the participants in the clip : exaggerating or spontaneous?
Camera angle at the beginning of the clip : Sometimes having the camera stagnant at one position and suddenly capturing a ghost seemed to easy and suspicious. Most ghosts are camera shy.
Technical aspects of video : Most importantly, resolution. If low resolution, the ghost captured could probably just be the result of pixel problems. Lens, AV compression and lighting could also contribute to the so called "ghost".

Just youtube "paranormal", "ghost" etc and you'll find a couple of local "ghost" clips there. Most of them are fake. I wonder why people would want to fake such things. Furthermore, because of this. if a real clip were to come out it will almost automatically be condemned as another hoax. This is the stigma created by those hoax idiots. Well, hopefully, I, zid, can bring you a video footage of real ghost some time later. I hope I can.

It's kind a sad because the trip some of my friends and myself planned were cancelled due to clash of dates to go. Some said it was a bad timing because they had camps and stuff, that's ok. Other than that, only 4 people were able to go last week. So I postponed it to probably next week or so. Just before school reopens for the new semester. Now, have to get Ahmad to go! Come on babe! One night only!

Anyways, yesterday I was so bored I did this :

Cool huh. Look good if it's an album jacket.

Please, I'm dying of boredom here. If anyone has anything exciting to do, please tell me. Especially to Mt. Pleasant! By hook or by crook I'm going there...with company of friends of course. I'd be nuts to enter that place alone at night and God knows what might be waiting for me.

Huh. Nothing else.

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